JANUARY 20th
'You fucked him!? You fucked him and then left him outside! He don't know this city! And my brother? My fucking brother, Sean? How the fuck is that fair!?'
This week's episode of 'Buns' was very good. Ali's brother had come to visit for the week, and Greg had acted like Greg always does, and seduced Ali's brother. I wish I could be more like Greg.
My week had not been the most eventful. I had spent every day doing the same thing: go to work, come home, and wait for Jonah to appear, so we could continue our 'fun' (as he called it).
Jonah had not been home in five days, and I was doing a late shift tomorrow evening.
I had lost hope in Jonah, before he moved in I was a bit of a shadow when it came to men, I spent time with one man and then it would end, and I'd spent the next year on my own. Jonah had come into my life during one of my lonely years, and I had become infatuated with him, and it felt odd.
Looking at him, you could understand some my feelings, only some of them though. The rest of my feelings, well, I didn't even understand them myself. Maybe it was the idea of what was to come next time we would be face to face, and cock to cock.
Whatever it was, I had a notion that my feelings for him would turn into one of anger, if he didn't turn up and deliver on his promise.
JANUARY 27th
I really could have punched Jonah today, seriously, I could have.
It was almost two whole weeks since our first encounter, and then he decides to come home in the middle of the day.
I was sat at the dining table with fat Clair having a tea when he came in, smiling and trying to make conversation. I was polite, but that was all.
Once he had left the room, fat Clair looked at me with eyes that said she knew everything.
"You didn't?!" She gasped, smiling.
"Didn't what?" I claimed ignorance to what she was talking about.
"You and him! Did you!?" Fat Clair was loving this.
"Maybe, well not as much as you think, it was a kiss, and a little touching." I explained, trying to dampen her dreams of me and Jonah.
"Rich! That's not like you!"
"Yeah, well it won't be again. He hasn't talked to me since, he hasn't even been here!"
"Yes he has, he been here every day whilst you've been at work. I talk to him a lot, I think you should go and talk to him." Fat Clair made a gesture with a raised eyebrow that indicated she knew something.
"What is it? Did he say something?" I asked, leaning in closer a little.
"No! No he didn't! I swear, but he did ask about you a lot! I think you're an idiot if you don't go and speak to him!"
I nodded at her, and got up from the table.
I made my way upstairs and headed for Jonah's room, where i assumed he would be hiding. I knocked on the door, but the music from inside muffled it.
I collected my courage and headed in, and then I froze in the doorway.
Jonah was laid on the bed, naked, a fully erect cock in his hand, masturbating. His eyes were closed, so he hadn't noticed me. I should've been getting hard over seeing this, but I was too angry.
"Jonah!" I yelled.
His eyes opened, and then he jumped into alert, turning off the music and covering himself with the beds duvet. "Richard! What the fuck are you doing?"
I laughed at him, this was absolutely ridiculous. I turned and left the room, storming my way to my bed, where I slammed the door. I sat on my bed, and I cried. I was crying for at least 10 minutes before Jonah came in, dressed in just his underwear and a t-shirt.
"Richard, what the fuck is the matter!?" He asked, trying to sound concerned.
"Oh, you do remember the people who's dicks you suck!" I was being bitchy, but he deserved my childish side.
"Do you actually have any understanding of why I've not been here in the evenings? Do you?"
I shook my head.
"You know what... Forget it..." Jonah turned round about to walk out. I jumped off of my bed and leapt at him, catching him on the shoulder and nearly tripping him over.