It was my very first time. I had never even pressed too hard on my hymen. I wasn't exactly saving myself for marriage. I just didn't want to end up like a lot of women in family and my neighborhood. I grew up without a father, and the very worst thing I could think of was having a child without a stable home.
Years have away of flying by, and my convictions had turned into a cause. Admittedly, I was a terrible date and way too sarcastic. I deemed a guy; loser or player, before he could get "Hello" out of his mouth good. Most men just never called back.
A few guys rumored that they had me screaming for more of their huge dicks. I let it go unchallenged, because it kind of took some of the pressure off. I did not confirm nor deny their fantasies of having sex with me.
My nights had been spent alone. I partied with my girlfriends, but I never had a man in my bed. It was just me, a bottle of Merlot, my finger, and my clit. I could bring myself off to a series of orgasms. I often masturbated in my office during lunch, and actually did it once during a boring meeting.
In my apartment, I had a collection of porn that I kept well hidden, because my girlfriends were so noisy. I love seeing huge black dicks. I get so horny just thinking about them. I get asked out a lot because I get caught staring at men crotches. I flirt and let them grind against me on the dance floor. I couldn't say how many orgasms I've had while dancing.
I knew it was time for me to give myself to a man when I ran into an old high school friend. He was even finer than he had been, back then. He had just come back from Europe, and said that he'd been their since he graduated college. He added that black men were treated much better over there. He wasn't married and didn't have any kids, but that wasn't all that got me. He didn't ask me out after I told him that I wasn't married, had kids, or was dating anyone at the time, and he didn't give me that, "I want to fuck your brains out" look.
He told me where he was staying and that he was headed to the café for lunch. I had to practically invite myself. He even pretended not to notice when I looked at his crotch. I knew that there was nothing wrong with me, and there was no way I would be believe that he was gay, but he didn't even check me out.