She couldn't believe it. She was finally going to get laid. FINALLY.
She licked her lips with anticipation as she glanced in the rearview mirror and saw that he was following her. Well, she would hope so. She had made the offer quite clear. It didn't matter that he was someone else's boyfriend and that she was someone else's girlfriend. She couldn't wait anymore. She couldn't stand another night of touching herself, sliding her fingers into her wet pussy as she dreamed of a lover caressing her, turning her head into the pillow so her parents wouldn't hear her cries.
When she arrived at the park, he pulled in behind her. She giggled with anticipation. How was it possible that boys didn't want to have sex? She'd had so many boyfriends, but they all just wanted to hold hands and cuddle after a few touches. She was 18 ... red curly hair ... pale skin ... not skinny but with curves ... full ass ... what was she doing wrong?
He grabbed her hand and pulled her behind the tree. He kissed her and she started to tug at his jeans. He pulled her down to her knees and placed her on her back. She felt her shorts being tugged off as she kept her eyes closed tightly ... then she felt ... wait, what was that? He was on top of her then, thrusting in and out. At least, that's what she thought he was doing. She couldn't really feel anything. Was she having sex? Or did he miss? Did guys miss? She concentrated ... yep, there was ... something there. His hands kneaded her breasts and she could tell he was getting more excited by his breathing. Could he tell she was confused?
No way, she thought. This is NOT it. She grabbed one of his hands from her breast and moved it around to her ass. She slowly guided it so that he was touching her asshole. She started to get a little excited when he jerked his hand away and returned it to her breast.
With a shudder he rolled off of her. She could hear his breathing in the dark. She stared at the constellations in the sky. Was that the Big Dipper?
A few awkward moments later and she was in the car on the way home. Damn. So much for her first time.
*****
She pulled into the parking lot of the convenient store and walked in.
"Girl, you look like crap. What happened?" Her best friend was never one to beat around the bush.
"I fucked Jack."
"Get out! Captain of the football team? He is so fine. I can't believe it. How was it?"
"Horrible. I felt ... nothing ... "
"But he looked so ..."
"Not up close."
"Stop thinking about it. There's a party tonight at Julie's. You're coming. I'll pick you up in 45 minutes."
She laughed. She was definitely not coming. Not yet.
*****
She fell back against the bed, the hair at the back of her neck wet with perspiration. She sucked her fingers as she pulled them out of her pussy. Maybe everyone was crazy, and that's just all there was. Maybe there was something wrong with her. She pulled her skirt on, leaving the panties on her floor as she let the cool summer breeze dry the wetness between her legs.
By the time she got to the party, it was pretty late. She didn't recognize most of the people, and her best friend spotted the guy of the hour and made a mad dash to the next room. Feeling a little awkward, she grabbed a beer and saw an open spot on a couch back in the corner.
"Hi"
She jumped, because she hadn't seen him there. But she knew him instantly. He was in a few of her classes, and they were friendly enough, but they weren't exactly friends. He was the kind of boy you talked to everyday but never really saw outside of class. Quiet and shy, but still able to make her laugh. He always asked how her day was ... cute if he'd become a little bolder.
"Hi"
She pounded the beer, trying to make sense of the evening. She should be overjoyed. She should be satisfied. Instead, she was frustrated.