I am more curious than fearful.
I have been this way as long as I remember, and this trait extends into all aspects of my life. Because of my sexual curiosity, my first time was different than most.
In fact, my first serious boyfriend was only in the picture because my best friend bragged about having oral sex with her boyfriend. So I got a boyfriend and tried it too.
And I liked it; I liked it right away. I never found it creepy, or gross, or a chore. I still love the feel of a man in my mouth. I liked practicing then, and I like practicing now. That's really how this story starts: an opportunity to practice led to perfection.
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On weekends I checked coats for functions at the local country club. It was a very easy, very boring job. I learned quickly that if you dressed right and flirted, you got better tips. I liked money and attention, so this was a great job for me.
I was shorter and thinner back then -- about 5'4" and 110 pounds. I kept my hair as light as possible, so I was very blonde. I wore my favorite halter dress -- a cobalt blue, crushed velvet party dress. The dress hugged my body, and because of the job, padded my purse.
I wore pumps to match both my jewelry -- a black onyx pendant necklace and earrings -- and my eye makeup. My glossy pink lipstick might have seemed slightly out of place, but it made me feel sexy. And feeling sexy was very important to me.
Andrew was not feeling sexy. He was in the wedding party, and looked ridiculous in a white tux and pink shirt. He knew it -- and it was the first thing he said to me.
"I look like an idiot," he said. I agreed, but let him off the hook. "You look perfect for what you're supposed to do." And that was the start of our conversation.
He was from out of town and was just here for his college buddy's wedding. He was smart, and he was funny, but best of all, he watched me. He watched me even while he danced. Not his partner, no, he watched me. I loved being watched.
And he was gorgeous. He was tall, muscular, and dark. He had black hair and blue eyes, and just the most beautiful voice you could imagine. A definite hottie! Eventually he asked if I got any breaks, and if I did, if I wanted to go for a walk.
"Yes!" I told him. "I get two 15-minute breaks -- one at 8:30 and another at 11:00, and I'd love to walk with you!" I asked to meet me out back at 8:30. He had to meet me, instead of escorting me, because I was not supposed to hang out with the guests.
I broke the silence as he approached. "You should know -- I have a boyfriend ..."
"I don't care about your boyfriend." He took me by the hand and led me toward the golf course. When we hit the shadows, and were no longer visible from the club, he kissed me. He was strong, confident, perfect, and easily the best kisser I had ever been with.