Helen and Boo made a graceful exit. Helen was chattering incessantly, as she had been most of the evening. If she was upset, she was able to contain her "disappointment" well. She didn't even look back as she walked out of sight down the hall. Boo looked back over her shoulder and gave me an impish smile. I suddenly wanted to know more about Boo, however she turned quickly and trotted off after her friend who was apparently calling to her.
Now I could devote my full attention to Rain, who was lying next to me on the bed. Her back was to me and her arms were wrapped around her chest, giving the impression that she might be chilled. I pulled on the other side of the bed spread and covered her up. She shook her head hard and kicked the cover away. I put my hand on her shoulder and she quickly shrugged it off. Now I was confused.
"What do you want me to do?" I asked. "What can I do for you?"
Without looking at me she said "I want you to lay down and be quiet. I need to think and focus very carefully and clearly. I need to find my Qi. I think also that you should."
I had no idea what Qi was much less how to find it. But it certainly sounded very spiritual so I decided to follow her lead and to close my eyes and relax. My thoughts immediately turned to the events of the past...hour? It hit me that I had no idea how long we had been in the room together. I tried to piece together everything that had happened to see if I could estimate how long it had been since I left Kory in the elevator. I wondered what he was thinking right now. I laughed to myself. Probably not about me at all.
I thought about Alicia. Holy fuck, if she found out about what I had been doing this evening she would shit a brick. On more than one occasion, she told me with a smile that I was solid but that I lacked "creativity" in bed. I used to press her about what that meant, and she would say "You either know what I'm talking about or you don't. There is no explaining it."
I think maybe now I know what she was talking about.
Just then Rain whispered to me "I think that you are having negative thoughts. I can see the tension in your face. I want you to only think of me. "
She took my right hand in hers and placed my hand between her breasts, palm down.
"I want you to feel my heartbeat. Feel my Qi, my Yin, my energy." She turned onto her back and lay perfectly still with my hand held on her chest. I cleared my mind the best I could. I focused on touch, on sound.
I could feel her heartbeat in the tips of my thumb, index and middle fingers. It was even and slow. Much slower than mine at that moment. I quickly lost interest in the heartbeat as I remembered where my hand was placed. The same fingers were also encircling her left breast. I lessened the pressure I was exerting and greedily slid them over her warm, dry skin from the initial curvature towards her nipple. I was picturing the view in my minds eye, watching them slowly tracing inwards and upwards.