As an older man, I find my fantasies have become more about intimacy than sex. I dream of a woman who enjoys our dance of the senses, a woman who responds to my touch as a form of communication, and who leads or follows the inexorable path to the ultimate intimate non-verbal conversation.
I have written this story from the perspective of the woman, allowing me to get exactly what I want, when I want it, in the way I want. It's my fantasy! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do...
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The doorbell rang. Jamie knew who was at the door. It was her mom's boyfriend, John. Her mom had arranged to be gone when John came by. Now it was up to Jamie to get what she wanted...
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Jamie had grown up as an only child of a single mom. The parade of boyfriends that came and went from her mother's bedroom had led to many open discussions about sex. By the time Jamie turned 18, her mom had agreed that it was okay for Jamie to bring boyfriends to spend the night, as long as her mom knew about it in advance.
It sounded good, but Jamie didn't have any boyfriends, at least not any she wanted to sleep with. The few she had gotten close to, she felt were not paying attention to her wanting to take it slow, her fears and trepidation. Even during her two years at the local junior college, she not found the right one.
Now Jamie was almost 20. She was getting her AA degree and moving away from home, into a dorm at a four-year college. She heard from her friends that very few students were virgins by their Junior year. As her departure date approached, Jamie became more and more anxious, worried about living in a dorm, about being a virgin. She wasn't surprised when her mom noticed, too.
"You'll be fine," her mom said, one afternoon.
"What?"
"I know you're worried," her mom reassured her. "Everything will work our."
Jamie winced. Her mom waited, but Jamie looked down at the floor. There was a long, painful silence.
"I'm still a virgin," Jamie said quietly.
When her mom just smiled back at her, Jamie looked back down.
"Sweetie," her mom reassured, "I know that."
Jamie let her mom wrap her arms around her with a hug.
"I know that," her mom repeated. "It's nothing to be ashamed of."
Jamie held her mom tight, fighting back the tears. She wished this was something her mom could solve for her, like when Jamie couldn't learn her times table. She hugged her mom tight and held on for a long time, then nervously cleared her throat.
"What do you think of... John?" her mom asked.
"What?" Jamie said, "John? Who?"
"Don't play coy... I've seen you flirting with him..."
"Your boyfriend?" Jamie squeaked.
Jamie made an exaggerated expression of disgust, hoping it would hide her blush. She had no idea that her mom had noticed how she liked to be around John, how she teased and kidded around him. Her mom just kept looking at Jamie as her face now turned bright red.
"It's all right, sweetie. If it had bothered me, I'd have said something. Fact is, John enjoys your flirting."
Jamie blushed, again, but this time from her quickened heartbeat.
Jamie's mom went on, "What if I told you... John might... that is... if you..."
Jamie tried to keep up with her flashing emotions as she tried to understand what her mother was saying. Was she saying that John might, might...
"But he's YOUR boyfriend!" Jamie blurted.
Her mother shrugged. "It's an open relationship. John is welcome to, and does, sleep with other women. You know he isn't my only boyfriend..."
"But he's sleeping with YOU!"
Her mother got a big grin. "Yes, and he's very good at it... very attentive...," she said, then quieter, "important ... very important... the first time..."
Jamie struggled between fear, anger, and arousal. She didn't know how to react to her mother's plotting.
"What if I'm not here sometime, when he drops by?" her mother went on.
Jamie made a face, was outwardly disgusted. But deep inside, she felt a twinge. During the day that twinge grew into a warmth, and in her room after dinner, it turned into a heat. When she passed her mom's door on the way to bed, she poked her head in and said quickly said only one word, "Okay."
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The doorbell rang, again.
For the past week Jamie had fantasized how this evening would go, what it would be like for John to touch her, kiss her. She had let her imagination run wild, with John making love to her in every room in the house, even pressed hard against the wall behind the front door.
Jamie took a deep breath. "Slow down, girl," she said to herself. "He's not even in the house and you're already on fire!" She walked to the door, looked in the mirror, smoothed her dress, touched her hair, took another breath, and swung the door open.
"Hey... John," Jamie said, trying to sound surprised.
"Hi, Jamie. Your mom here? I'm here for dinner..."
"Yeah, sure, come on in."
Closing the door and turning to John, Jamie smiled. John smiled back, giving her a long once over. His eyes darted down to her feet, then slowly dragged up her legs. Her dress was short, and John paused when he came to her thighs. Jamie shifted her knees, turning her leg so that he could see more of her inner thigh. She imagined he had x-ray eyes, could see she was wearing the tiniest, carmine red, thong. His eyes crawled up to her two alabaster globes. She didn't move, letting him watch as her chest swelled under his gaze. Finally, his eyes went up to hers.
"Nice dress!" John said.
Jamie thought he had almost said "breasts."
"Thank you." she said.
John continued to stare. She was sure he was trying to embarrass her, or at least make her blush and back down, but she held her ground. She could feel the heat of his body. She watched his nostrils flare. She felt his breath on her chest as he exhaled. She leaned a little closer, wanting to be touched, wanting to press against him. In her fantasy, he had grabbed her, kissed her, pushed her back against the wall...
A mischievous grin snaked up one side of John's face. "Where's your mom?
"She's out."
John's eyebrows went up.
"I don't know when she's coming back."
John looked away. Jamie realized she had made a mistake.
"Let's see what she's got cooking," John said, turning to walk to the kitchen. Jamie's heart sank. Then he put his arm up, inviting Jamie to put her arm through his. Jamie stepped forward and slid her hand under his elbow, then up onto his arm, letting her fingers move slowly, feeling the hairs on his arm slip between her fingers. John waited. Jamie smiled, then gave him a tug to lead him into the kitchen.
As they walked the few steps through the living room to the kitchen, Jamie pressed her fingertips into John's arm. He put his hand over hers. Jamie's heart started pounding. She felt the heat from his hand. It quickly travel to her face. Another step and the heat moved to her crotch. She felt the fullness of her swelling lips as she felt her thong sliding deeper. Jamie gave John a squeeze. He squeezed back. This time, she felt the wave of slippery fluid. Her face grew red. Jamie's living room fantasy flashed through her body, where he turns, and kisses her, his fingers quickly finding her wet readiness...
At the door to the kitchen, John stopped, put his hand on Jamie's shoulder, and stood to the side to let her go in first. As she passed him, his hand slid down her back. She slowed, letting his hand lightly graze her dress. When his hand reached her waist, she stopped moving forward. He rested his fingers for a moment on her hip, then down to the top of her buttock.
John surprised her with a quick smack to the butt. Jamie squealed, felt the rush of a near orgasm. "Take me now!" she thought to herself, surprised at just how easily flirting turned into love making. John just gave her a nudge, pushing Jamie along into the kitchen. He bumped into her when she suddenly turned around.
"I'm not sure when Mom's coming back," Jamie said.
Neither Jamie nor John moved. He was so close he was pressing lightly into her breasts. He looked into her eyes. She wanted to kiss him. She closed her eyes and gave her lips a quick lick.
"Your mom invited me for dinner," John said, looking around, pulling away. There was no evidence of any dinner. "Was she going to bring back some take-out?"
Jamie shrugged. "I don't know," she said, unwilling to tell him the truth, unable to lie to him.
John took another step back, looked around. The table wasn't set. The kitchen looked like it hadn't been touched. He pulled out his cell phone, turning his back to Jamie.
"Hey, honey, it's John... Yeah... I'm here... at your place. Where are you?"
Jamie couldn't see his face. She tried to read his body language. He seemed concerned. Then his voice got louder.
"YOU invited ME, remember?"
Jamie heard the anger, saw the tension. His shoulders slumped. John looked up at the ceiling and turned. When he noticed Jamie, he turned his back to her, again, but not before she had seen the hurt in his eyes. His voice was quieter, now.
"Yeah, okay... Okay... No, it's not all right!"
With an angry jerk, he flipped his phone closed and put it back in his pocket, then took it back out and held the button until it turned off. Jamie didn't know what to say. She waited.