Penny Garson, just turned nineteen years of age, sat back in the passenger seat of the blue Jaguar and feared that she might be dreaming. The change in her life in just two hours was totally unbelievable . Getting away from the grim St Augustine Homes was like escaping prison, no matter where she was being taken. She glanced sideways at the incredibly beautiful lady in the white trouser suit. Penny was only just coming to terms with the notion that this was her aunt, her late mother's sister, Aunt Sophie
Out of the confines of the Matron's office and into this lush vehicle, Penny had been gi ven a second, warm jasmine scented hug by this lady, her aunt, who had then sat back and sighed, "What an old battle axe that Matron is." Rapidly she undid the top three buttons of her jacket, revealing an admirable amount of cleavage. "Had the temerity to tell me to button up while in her establishment. The old cow. I'm glad I'm getting you out of there."
Starting the car, and with another smile at Penny, she added, "She probably thinks we shouldn't have tits, eh?" Penny was delighted to join in with her aunt's laughter, and liked her already.
"Just how long have you been in the Home?"
Penny knew the answer exactly, "Fourteen months and six days".
Serious faced now, her aunt nodded, "More than anything you must let me apologise for not being around to keep you out of that awful place."
Aunt Sophie went on to tell Penny how she avoided looking at the news and newspapers, "News is always miserable. So I had no idea of what had happened to my sister Ruth and your father, or to you. And I'm deeply sorry for that. It was just wild chance that I found out."
Aunt Sophie went on to describe how she had purchased a rather delicate vase, and it arrived protected by reams of newspapers, which were over a year old. "The headline was prominent enough, 'English couple die in horrific road accident in Dordogne.' I might have pushed it to one side but for the accompanying photographs. Your mother never smiled on photographs."
For a moment she concentrated on negotiating a difficult bend. Then she went on, "We mightn't have been close, Ruth and I, but I was naturally upset. From the newspaper I found the solicitor, and when he told me how their Will placed you, for your own protection, in the care of the St Augustine Home, well, I was horrified."
"It was so I didn't get led astray," Penny told her.
Penny's aunt nodded and then laughed, "Oh, the irony of placing you in that home without knowing that it now takes in low risk young female offenders. "
"They were the only bright spot in the place."
Aunt Sophie laughed again, "I can imagine."
"My parents were always like that with me. No freedom to explore the world, to meet people. When they went on this holiday they even hired a minder."
"A minder?"
"To keep me on the right path."
Aunt Sophie's head was nodding as she drove, "God, so like how it was with our own parents. Your mother followed their path, I never could. Anyway, you became my duty."She smiled at Penny, "But one I have looked forward to."
Aunt Sophie's dark eyes glanced sideways at Penny, "God, you are such a fine looking girl. I just can't wait to see you properly dressed."
"But I haven't any other clothes."
"I'm sure we'll find something." The enigmatic smile on her aunt's face had Penny wondering just what she had in mind.
"Did you have a boy friend beforeβwell, the accident?"
Penny gave out a derisive snort , "Are you joking?" Then a thought struck her, a memory from the evenings in the Home." This will give you some idea of how much I know about boys."
"Sounds interesting."
"Not really," Penny told her, and went on about how, in the late evening, in the Home, when she had turned eighteen she was allowed to sit in a chat group of girls. They had made a ruling that the age range had to be eighteen or over. Penny had listened avidly as the older girls talked and giggled about having "a boy's 'thing' right up."
"Honestly? All of it?" asked another eighteen year old, who, Penny knew, had, like her, come from a restrictive church background
"No, just bits of it." A twenty year old answered sarcastically. "Of course, the whole thing."
The churchy girl still looked uncertain as she asked, "How did he get it up into you when it's so soft and floppy?"
That made Aunt Sophie laugh, as she moved her hand to change gear, "Such ignorance."
"Not so funny,"Penny said regretfully. "Great howls of derision went up from the older girls, 'It goes hard, stupid.' One of them sneered, and she turned to me and asked if I could believe that any girl wouldn't know that."
Penny drew in a breath, and kept her eyes on her aunt for reaction as she admitted, "Aunt Sophie, I could only shake my head and say nothing because I wasn't too sure myself. Oh, a vague idea, but that's how much I knew about boys."
She could read nothing in her aunt's face. No shock, no surprise, no pity. But then Aunt Sophie asked, "But your own body must have told you something."
"Oh, in the girls' school they covered the bleeding bit and how babies were born. Honestly, I learned more about the reality of it from the older girls in St Augustine's. But I was aware of --of needs--and, by the time I was in that chat group, I used to--"She couldn't believe she was telling this to a near strangerβ"βtouch myself. Up here and down there."
"And found out what?" Aunt Sophie kept her eyes on the road. .
"Sometimes I'd go wet and weak. Always left feeling empty"
"Life has been pretty rotten for you, Penny. I hope I can change all that."
Penny had to clear her mind again, "I could never have told my mother those things. Are you really her sister?" she asked tentatively Aunt Sophie smiled, "Oh, yes, I can quite understand your doubts. Chalk and cheese, my dear older sister and I. She probably didn't tell you about me. If she did you'd have heard her using words like 'disgusting', 'disgraceful', maybe even 'whore'. She certainly fired them at me before we went our separate ways."
"But why?"
"How old are you, Penny?"