Hey guys I just need to confess something which happened literally yesterday.
so let's start into the day I just woke up thinking that today I want to have sex with a stranger. A quick, no-nonsense fuck with someone whose name I don't know.
I want to feel his hands tightly grasping my hips, run my hands over his body, and not care whether either of us really enjoys the experience. I want a fuck for function, a fuck for the sake of fucking. I want to fuck a stranger.
Most of the sex I've had has been with people I know. Even the one-offs usually happen with friends: a drunk night, a frantic fumble, a 'thanks that was ace I'll see you in the pub on Tuesday' as I ran to catch the night bus. I love those fucks -- the casual ones.
But stranger sex has been much rarer for me. Of course it's often dangerous, and there have been times when I've reluctantly turned down an offer, because I couldn't quite guarantee that I'd make it home afterwards. On a couple of occasions, though, I've had that delicious knowledge that -- even as we're fucking -- we both know that when we come it will be the end of whatever we've had.
Every day I get to fuck someone I love, which makes me lucky. Incredibly so. The easy curve of his hand around my arse, the exact pressure on my spine, pushing me to arch my back just right to feel the exact girth of him slipping into me: fitting. That's valuable, and I love it.
But just because I'm enjoying my shower, doesn't mean I can't appreciate how fun it was to be dirty -- sometimes I dream about sex with strangers.
I imagine sitting on a stool at a bar somewhere, when a miserable-looking guy sits near me. He's wearing a suit, he's dark and handsome, he's a bundle of all the clichΓ©s I don't normally go for. He wears a watch and it accentuates the strength of his arms.
I look at his wrists and imagine him wanking. Jerking himself off into the toilet: neat, functional, aggressively grunting throughout. I imagine the 'unngh' as he comes into the toilet bowl, thinking of me staring at him and wondering if I would.
I would.
I'd watch him drinking but we wouldn't talk. Occasionally I'd catch his eye and do the flirting that I've read about in advice books. Well, a more exaggerated version, anyway -- leaning over the bar to show him a bit more of my tits, crossing and uncrossing my legs until my skirt rides up so far he can't help but think of my cunt.
Shooting him the raised-eyebrows-how-about-it look, and mouthing 'fuck me' just before I head to the bathroom.