***I was on the train and saw a guy holding a large painted self-portrait. He was tall, with dark hair, a choker collar and looked vaguely Asian. His painting conveyed both anger and sadness. This is how I imagined his story.***
Akira pulled out the folded piece of paper from his pocket.
On a 24 inch by 36 inch canvas, depict How I See Myself in acrylic paints. Your artwork will be graded for originality as well as your proficiency in the medium of acrylics. This assignment is due next Thursday. Professor Leronce Davis, MFA Professor of Fine Arts Associate Chairperson Hertford College of Greater Bennington.
How I see myself.... What a stupid assignment thought Akira. He parked the canvas on the easel. It was white and blank and it stared back at him with its evil white eye. Akira threw a paintbrush at it.
He yelled, "Stupid white canvas." He blew his dark hair out of his face. I'll do this later, he thought.
It was Wednesday and the canvas was still white. Akira glared at it and threw another paintbrush at the canvas. It missed. His mother's voice interrupted his thoughts.
"Akira-kun, wake up is time for college.
Akira went to the kitchen. His mother had cooked rice and sweet bean paste and all other sorts of nice things, but he was not hungry. He choked down a mouthful just to make her happy. Then he looked up at her face. She was pretty, he thought. With her long black hair and pale skin and petite frame, she could almost be a teenager. But her eyes were sad.
Akira's parents were divorced for about a year. His father was a big tall American who had charmed his Japanese mother when he was on vacation in Tokyo. She was a girl just a year out of high school working a dead end job at a car rental agency. His father was a shrewd businessman whose real estate deals and investments had made him very rich.
Akira gritted his teeth. If only she knew, what her ex-husband was really like. But his father the charmer made sure mom was supported in the style she had been accustomed to living in before the split with fancy cars, designer clothes and all that probably more than all that.
"Are you going to college today?" asked his mom.
"Nah, I have painting to catch up on. There's this assignment due tomorrow."
"Akira, why you always wait until last minute?" she asked.
"The last minute," he corrected her grammar out of habit.
He went back to his room and shut the door. He changed out of his pajamas and into his painting clothes, which consisted of a black tank, and black jeans that were splattered with the vestiges of his previous artwork.
He picked up the brushed that he had thrown at the canvas and opened up his paint box. He spread out the paint neatly on the palette and set up water and acrylic thinner.
He started to paint, occasionally glancing in the mirror to make certain that the proportions were correct. He painted until he heard his mom knock on the door. It was 7:00PM.
"Akira, are you coming to dinner?"
Akira did not bother to respond. She would probably leave a tray in front of his door as she usually did.
"Did Janie come today?"
Janie was the maid that came on Wednesday s and Fridays. Akira continued to ignore her hopefully she would get the hint. She did not. Finally, he yelled, "Urosai." And it was quiet.
(Urusai means shut up in Japanese)
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Giselle kissed Maya and her mom goodbye. She was so excited. Her painting was perfect. After hours of work, she was finally done. Her masterpiece was wrapped in dark brown paper and twine and she was good to go.
"Don't you want me to drive you," her mom asked.
"Nope, Laini kindly offered to drive me to college."
Giselle heard the beep of the horn and ran out clutching her precious package.
Laini rolled down the window of the car.
"C'mon Giselle, get in already we're like so late."
Giselle carefully laid her precious package in the backseat of the car. She was quiet the whole ride there. Laini knew better that to press her to see her paintings. Giselle could be quite self-conscious and was very sensitive regarding her art.
Giselle peeled off the paper from her painting and displayed it on one of the easels against the wall. Some of the other students had already arrived and set up their work. Giselle surveyed the scene. Most of her classmates had painted themselves doing activities they enjoyed.
This was after all a freshman art class and most of them were more interested in hanging out then actually pouring their heart and soul into their creations.
Giselle was drawn to one that was attempting to hide in the corner. She turned the easel to face forward and was stunned. On the canvas was a tall Amerasian boy with long dark hair. He was dressed as a Goth. She felt the anger radiating off the canvas.
The boy was downcast and his eyes were focused on something on his lap. There was a gaping bleeding hole where his heart would be. In his hands, he was holding a bloody dead bird, a sparrow.
Giselle could not stop staring. Not only was he talented, he also emoted perfectly. Her cheeks felt hot. She put her palms against them to cool them. She looked around the classroom but he was not there. She shrugged and went to her seat.
Professor Davis strode into the classroom.
"Alright, we shall begin our critique now. Ms. Dufour, please."
Giselle went right over to her painting and closed her eyes. Let the roast begin she thought.
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Akira slipped in the door. They had all started with the critique already. He saw Giselle standing next to her work. She had depicted herself as a classical Venus with a practically see through gown done in the Greek style of wet drapery. Her hair, which was light brown in reality, was now reddish blonde in her work.
She had painted her nipples peaking through the fabric and further down there was...well he reddened and quickly looked at her painted face which had her stubborn chin.
She was holding up her world, a dark globe that showed ghostly visions of people he did not now, the largest being a small girl and a middle-aged woman. He liked it very much, especially the nipples.
Professor Davis turned around and saw him.
"Ah, Mr. Bonsange," she said, "you finally decided to grace us with your presence."
Akira smirked.
"Well what have we got to say for ourselves?"
The professor tapped her foot impatiently. Akira decided to give it his best shot after all Giselle seemed like a nice girl who was probably wishing she were elsewhere at the moment.
"I like it."
Professor Davis motioned with her hand for him to continue.
"A lot."
Akira shrugged and continued his critique.
"Obviously, Ms. Dufour is a lovely young woman who works very hard holding up the planet while we mere mortals have the audacity to critique her."
The professor raised an eyebrow and said nothing.
Giselle breathed a sigh of relief it was over. They did not get to Akira's painting. Giselle was breathlessly waiting for him outside the classroom.
"What class do you have next?"
He told her that he had a free period. She suggested they go get a coffee. Akira nodded. They went to a small coffee shop that was about two blocks from the campus.
Giselle ordered a double espresso; Akira ordered a green tea with a shot of espresso and whipped cream. Giselle wrinkled her nose.
"What kind of crap is that?" she asked.
Akira shrugged.
"So what about this class?" She asked him.
He shrugged again. "It's okay."
"I mean your work." She was persistent.
"First tell me about yours. "
She smiled.
"The middle aged lady is my mom. Actually, my foster mom and the little girl is my daughter Maya. I had her when I was 15. My parents kicked my out when I was pregnant and I had nowhere else to go. I bounced around for a few months and I've been living with my foster mom since I'm 16. My daughter is five now and she is such a dream. She's my little angel."
