I watched as Heather raised the cigarette to her mouth. She placed the cork filter in the center of her pursed lips and the cigarette bobbed upwards as she released her fingers into a V. The tip of the cigarette glowed as she inhaled the smoke into her mouth. Her cheeks caved slightly before she removed the cigarette and opened her mouth. A roll of smoke came out of her mouth before she inhaled it back in. Pursing her lips she blew a cone of smoke upwards, the wind blowing it away.
"Like that?" Heather inquired.
"Just like that." I stammered, barely believing what was happening.
"Maybe try releasing a larger ball of smoke before you inhale it back in." I continued, hoping Heather understood. Also hoping I wasn't pushing my luck.
Taking a drag of her cigarette, she replied "Okay, let's see."
This time she placed the cigarette slightly off center, and dragged hard, her cheeks hollowing more than last time. She removed the cigarette and looked slightly down as she opened her mouth. A large ball of creamy smoke exited her lips and she snapped it back into her mouth, only a few stray wisps of smoke escaping.
As she blew the smoke out of her mouth, a small amount came out her nose.
"Well?' she asked.
"Perfect. That looked so sexy." I said, standing a bit closer to her and putting an arm around her waist.
Heather flicked ash off her cigarette with a manicured thumb nail and said "I think I like the french inhale better, though."
"I like them both, I am just glad you don't mind smoking for me." I stammered, trying not to sound too desperate.
*****
And desperate I was. As long as I could recall, a girl or woman smoking was exciting to me. Growing up in the 80's, smoking was everywhere. The chance of seeing a woman smoking was much higher than today.
At first, I found it captivating, then as I got older, I found it sexy and a turn on. I had spent my teen years trying to date girls who smoked, but invariably only the 'good girls' who hated smoking were attracted to me.
Later in college, I was able to fool around with a few smoking girls, but aside from making out with them as we smoked, I never got up the nerve to actually tell them about my smoking fetish.
As I got a bit older, I decided to do something about it. I focused on dating only smokers. The first girl I dated, Amanda, smoked daily, but she found it weird and off putting when I wanted her to smoke before and during sex. She was perfectly happy to sit in bed naked and smoke after sex, but had no interest in anything else. That satisfied me for a time, but I wanted more.
So a few weeks back I was at the pub having a few drinks with friends. The bartender serving us was a spirited blonde, named Heather. When not serving the occasional customer, or wiping down the bar, she was posted at one end, drinking a coffee, and smoking cigarettes. I noticed her straight away, as any red-blooded man would. But of course, what really drew me to her was her smoking. She smoked with a casual style that declared: Fuck you, I'm smoking. The odd time, she would keep smoking while pouring a drink, the cigarette jutting out from her lips.
Over the course of the night, I worked up enough (liquid) courage to wander down to her perch at the end of the bar and chat with her. She was very quick to laugh, and easy going. She had her hair up in a ponytail, and I could see a nose ring in one nostril. Her eyes sparkled when she laughed and her whole essence was joyous.
Before heading back to my friends, I shot my shot.
"So, I'm not doing anything tomorrow night, and would love to take you out for dinner, or a drink, if you're not working," I said.
Heather cocked her head to the side and answered "Turns out I am free, and I do like to eat! Meet me outside at 7:00, I know a place just around the corner".
"Great, see you then!" I said, heart beating quicker.
*****
The restaurant around the corner turned out to be a Mexican place. We sat down in the smoking section, and she put a pack of Marlboro Reds on the table.
After ordering drinks, she grabbed her pack and pulled one out, offering it to me.
"You want one?" she asked.
"I would love one, but I do have my own," I replied, patting my pocket.
"Well, take this one for now, we can smoke yours later!" she said, smiling at me.
I took the cigarette and Heather took one of her own. I was quick to grab my lighter and light hers for her. She immediately took a drag and let a tiny snap inhale out. She lifted her chin slightly, and exhaled a tight stream of smoke towards the ceiling.
I watched her, captivated.
We made small talk throughout the evening, each smoking several cigarettes (I never did take my pack out). After leaving the restaurant, we strolled through a nearby park, stopping under the gazebo.
"One more smoke for the road?" she asked.
"Of course," I replied.
Feeling a sudden daring urge I blurted out "I love watching you smoke".
Heather smiled and said "I thought you seemed very interested in my smoking, but figured it was my stunning beauty", as she dramatically flipped her hair and giggled.
"Oh, it's both, for sure. But I get...turned on by a beautiful woman smoking, and...sorry, forget it. I don't want to make this weird." I murmured, wondering what in the hell I was doing.
I should have just kept my mouth shut and enjoyed her spirited attitude and her smoking from a relative distance. Ugh.