"I have date with a real man later, depending on my mood I might choose to tease you about it. But if I do, you will still not reply. I know how much you love messaging me and I enjoy denying you that pleasure. After your message of gratitude for letting you spill your sissy seed, you may not text me again until tomorrow morning."
My heart drops a bit, but my dick does not. I quickly pull my plug out with a loud pop and a sharp burst of pain. Owww. I pulled it out too fast. I try to distract myself from the pain by shoving the plug in my mouth. It tastes more like shit and less like lube than last time when I did it without instruction. My tongue swirls all around the head of the plug. I lift my legs and begin to probe my hole with the toy. The head is barely in before my hole begins to resist.
I quickly grab my lube and slide my panties off, keeping my dirty plug in my mouth. I lube up my toy and slide two lubed fingers into my hole. It accepts them eagerly. I replace my fingers with my toy. I slide it about 3-4 inches in before beginning to fuck myself with it. I moan and say out loud, 'I am Princess T's sissy and my dick will never please her.' My unworthy dick throbs, yearning for attention. I begin stroking it with my left hand. I repeat my masturbation mantra again and try to get the toy deeper in my hole. My entire body is awash with pleasure. It has only been six days since my last orgasm, but the pleasure I get from stroking myself in this manner makes it feel as if it has been much longer.
About halfway through my fourth recitation of my manta, I feel my orgasm building in my erect little penis. It has only been about a minute and a half of stroking and I am already about to cum. Just another reminder of why I am unworthy to have 'traditional' sex.
I had read the instructions again after my first time reciting it and am now saying it verbatim. As the words 'my dick is too small to please heeeer' escape my lips they are replaced by a moan so high pitched that I am shocked that it came from my own mouth. My sissy hole tightens on the brown dildo as my thicker-than-usual cum squirts out onto my bare chest. The first rope lands just under my chin, on my chest above my tits. Three more ropes shoot out, not quite as far, but covering my entire chest in sticky white substance. I attempt to move the dildo back and forth a bit, but it hurts so I pull it out.
I take my butt plug out of my mouth. I debate whether to insert it back in, but decide against it. My asshole deserves the rest of the night off. I attempt to scoop up as much of my cum as I can on the head of my dildo. Usually when I jerk off daily, my cum is very thin and watery. Having built up for almost a week, it has a more viscous texture that allows more to stick to the toy.
Once the toy is coated as well as I think I can, I shove it down my throat. For some reason, my throat was not prepared for this and I gag. I move the dick out slightly but not all the way, allowing myself a second to relax my throat. Then I shove the brown cock in deeper.
I feel the cum more than I taste it. I have eaten my own cum many times. I am not exactly accustomed to the taste, it still generally shocks me a little because I do it so sporadically. This is a completely different experience. The burn in the back of my throat begins before I am able to taste the saltiness on my tongue. I wonder if this is what it is like to have a dick cum in your mouth. I lick around the dildo while keeping it shoved down my throat. This adds to the salty flavor I associate with eating my own cum, but the burn in my throat remains the more powerful stimulator.
I close my lips around the dildo as I slowly slide it out of my mouth. The cummy flavor intensifies, along with subtle hints of lube and rubber. I scoop up another load of cum, not as much as the first time, but about half of what remains on my chest. I shove the cock back down my throat, this time more relaxed and prepared for it. Once again I feel the burn in the back of my throat. This time I enjoy it more. I have not felt so slutty in such a long time. I feel a pang of regret that Princess will never see this.
I scoop up a little more cum on the cock and just lick it off this time. I don't think Princess will mind. My tongue travels up and down the shaft multiple times slurping up all cum and any other substance that coats it. Once all the cum I can possibly scoop up has been removed, I reach for my phone to text Princess.
"Thank you so much for everything Princess. Those were the hottest jerk off instructions I have ever received. The orgasm felt amazing, but not as amazing as obeying you. Have a great rest of the day, I'll talk to you tomorrow."
Exhaustion overcomes me as I descend from my orgasmic pleasure. Without bothering to clean myself up, I roll on my side and pass out, cuddling with the dildo that is still dirty with the residue of cum, lube and ass juice.
Once I wake up, I clean my toys, put them away and try to resume a normal day. I go for a run, shower and cook some rice and vegetables for a late lunch. I settle down with a book and try to read, attempting to keep my mind off Princess. Even after my explosive orgasm, it is difficult to steer my thoughts away from the sexual for very long. I long for more orders from Princess but know none are coming.
I put on a movie, hoping that will hold my attention better than a book was, when I finally get the text.
"Having a great time out tonight sissy. It turns me on to start my day with a sissy sucking my dick and end it by sucking a real man's dick. He can please me in ways that you never could, but I enjoy his company even more knowing that you are sitting at home thinking about me. Remember, no touching your little clit tonight and no texting me back. I do want you to spend five minutes sucking your toy before you go to sleep. Good night bitch boy."
I pause the movie immediately and read the text over and over again. My little dick quickly gets hard, but I resist making contact with it. It did feel good to know that she was thinking about me and that even from a distance I was able to make her evening more pleasurable. I set my phone down, take a deep breath and finish the movie.
That night, I complete my bedroom routine of changing into my pajamas and brushing my teeth before I get my dildo out. I stick it to my nightstand where I would normally have a bottle of water. I set my timer for 5 and a half minutes. It always makes me feel good to do a little extra for Princess T. As soon the the timer begins, I start sucking. Even with my post orgasm nap, exhaustion has caught up with me as the night has progressed. I had slept so poorly the night before that my mind is tired and mostly clear as I perform my pre-sleep fellatio. I don't go down deep enough to gag or choke, but I dutifully suck the dick up and down for the required amount of time. Once the timer goes off, letting me know my time was up, I am asleep within minutes with my big brown dildo still stuck to my nightstand.
I awake the next morning feeling refreshed. My hand bumps the dildo as I reach for my phone and I can't help but chuckle. I send Princess T a long 'Good morning' text, thanking her profusely for all she had put me through yesterday. I get out of bed, put my dildo away and attempt to have a normal day.
Princess had not yet given me any specific instructions going forward on whether I was allowed to touch myself or not. I decide I will play with myself if the desire arises (and it certainly would) but will not cum. I was actually rubbing myself rereading her messages from last night when I finally get her reply.
"Glad you enjoyed yourself so much yesterday. I had a great but exhausting night. Not really in the mood to talk much today. You are free to do as you wish until I tell you otherwise."
I send back a brief reply and do not hear back from her. I edge myself several times over the course of the day, but do not get my toys out nor allow myself to cum.
Throughout the week I continue to deny myself an orgasm. I soon start reintroducing my toys into my sex life, fucking my ass and mouth as I rub myself, but never allowing myself over the edge. Princess T is distant and disinterested for most of the week. She has very busy week at work and does not have time to coddle or continually instruct her desperate little sissy.
The week passes and the weekend approaches. Still no invitation to meet up with her. Still no orgasm for me. Finally on Saturday afternoon she invites me to take her out to lunch on Monday. I am free all day and excitedly agreed. My self imposed sexual denial is making me a little desperate for sexual attention, but I know a lunch date is a positive sign. I badly want a relationship with Princess T outside of sex. It is just hard to get my mind off of sex when thinking about her, because thinking about her at all instantly turns me on. I debate letting myself cum Sunday night so I will be calmer and less horny during our lunch, but instead I fuck my ass until it is sore. The intense ass fucking actually quells my sex drive nearly as much as having an orgasm would.
Monday afternoon I arrive at the restaurant 20 minutes before our scheduled meeting time. Princess had given me no clothing instructions nor any list of items to bring with me. I wear a pair of panties to be safe, but not my plug. I do not bring my dildo. The restaurant is a little more upscale than I had expected and I am grateful that I had decided to wear a button down shirt.