I go through experiences with people. I mean, I go through their experiences with them.
But how does this keep happening? Here in Sag Harbor on Long Island Sound, where mega-yachts dock and fashionable women shop and flocks of summer tourists mate, we are a small town--for all our allure to New Yorkers. So, in a sense, the street and restaurants and bars and natural foods stores are swarming with the lonely seeking connection.
I connect. I connect with men because I am svelte, cute, and a sucker for a nice smile and a pleasing tone of voice. I connect with young women (we are getting to the point, now) because they seem to study me, glance and glance away, frown, shyly smile...Why?
That is how I met Darlene in a bar on the wharf at the harbor with the big yachts nodding gently at their own reflections in the still waters. (You can't imagine how often I've been invited to "come aboard" for a drink. Dangerous.)
I was on a bar stool, as always, Darlene was at a table. It happens that that Friday evening in July I was airing my 32B bust in a three-buttons-open silk blouse with no bra. I always can do that; I am firm and they are spaced apart. Darlene stared and stared and stared from her side view of the bar, until I turned, smiled, and waved her over.
"Oh, Jesus!" she sighed at she swung onto a stool. She was a bit shorter than I am, fuller bodied (like everyone), with an adorable love-doll face framed in shortish blond hair. What in hell was she doing alone on a Friday evening in Sag Harbor?
I waited. She tragically said, "I was staring, wasn't I?"
"You were looking, but that is why we all come to bars."
"But at..." She waved at the expanse of pale skin and the modest suggestion of hillocks in my decolletage.
"Oh, were you?"
She would not look at me. She nodded.
"I don't mind. What are you drinking? It's on me."
"Oh, no! Please, please! On me."
"Dutch treat," I said. "Why were you studying my breasts?"
"Could we go somewhere private?"
"You have a place?"
"Studio. Summer rental just over the bridge. Want to come?"
"I guess. Sure."
It was cute. View from one window toward the Sound. Nice and clean. Easily $2,000 a month in the summer. Obscene. She sat on the floor. I sat on the couch. By now, we both held a glass of Pinot Grigio. The more I looked at her, the more I saw the sensitivity in her face.
Vulnerable blue eyes and the lips full and sweet, but set in defiance.
I waited, smiling. This is what I do in Sag Harbor. A new adventure into secret lives. Especially sex lives.
"I was staring at your boobs, back at the bar, and feeling sick. Mine are a disaster."
I took the invitation to study her. Seemed like a pretty full bra under that blouse.
Darlene shook her head morosely. Her fingers came up and unbuttoned her blouse. She shrugged it off. Arms went into the usual contortion for unhooking the bra. She looked on the verge of tears.
Oh, dear God save us.
"See?" she said.
They once had been jumbo boobs. Full, probably pendulant. With big, pale pink nipples to fit. Now... How to put this? Someone had let all the air out of them. Pale skinned flat flaps with big flat pink nipples hanging straight down from the bottoms.
Darlene was crying, now.
"What happened?"
She nodded and nodded, gulping, trying to get composure. I tried not to look at the deflated ollas.
"I had a boyfriend, Benny. I thought he loved my boobs. I know that is why he dated me. Every guy wanted to! Every guy stared--and some girls, too. At first, Benny crushed them everytime and sucked my tits. And then, we would have sex and I gave him everything. I sucked him. I let him ream my ass while he reached around and felt me up like crazy. My nipples would stand out an inch. Everything!"
 
         
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                     
                    