"DING"
The phone announces the arrival of another message as I rush though the tight corridor toward the exit. Work is done for today and I can't wait to get out of here. The corridor smells of dust and cleaning chemicals and I'm grateful when I finally push the door open and step out into the cool night air.
I stop just outside the door to check my phone.
KAT: "Hi babe. We are in the Moon having a
drink before we head out into the
town."
KAT: "Everyone is here just you are missing.
But I understand if you don't feel like
going out after work."
KAT: "Love you and C U later."
I smile as I read your message. As always when I think of you, I feel a wave of warmth washing over me. It's already been 14 months that we are together. The longest relationship I ever had by far, before you no one stuck around for more than a couple months. But with you, it's just somehow easy. Self explanatory. Even moving together felt like the most natural thing in the word. It's been 5 months now and despite my initial fears, living together has actually turned out to be drama free and effortless. And I'm still as crazy about you.
ME: "Thanks for being so understanding.
It's been crazy today. I guess I'm
gonna head home."
ME: "Wake me up when you come back."
ME: "Love U."
I leave the restaurant behind and head to my car. The night is cold and there is a light drizzle. It's past 11 o'clock. Everyone who ever worked in catering knows that the unsocial hours are part of the trade. If I would have wanted to work office hours I shouldn't have become a chef. But I'm not going to give up now. It took me three and a half years of grueling work to become the junior sous chef of a prestigious place. To hell with the long hours, I'm going to make it.
As I drive towards our shared place, I notice more and more groups of people, roughly in my age as they heading out to blow off some steam. It's Friday night and as the pubs and restaurants close, the clubs are just about to open. You are in a similar group now, in the company of friends and colleagues. Probably leaving your preferred venue at the moment to join the droves of people in the clubs, drinking and dancing till the early hours of the morning.
I decide I will text you again before I go to bed.
Our tiny flat is dark and quiet when I get home. I reach into the fridge for a beer and sit down with a sigh.
I take my phone out, another couple of messages waiting from you.
KAT: "I'm already a bit wasted."
followed by a couple of smileys.
A smile in the corner of my mouth as I scroll down
KAT: "Here is something to remind you of me."
your next message say, a couple of devil emojis to follow.
Next is a picture message. Looks like the photo was taken in an public bathroom, probably in the pub. Bright white neon light illuminates the picture you took of yourself in the mirror. Nobody else seems to be in the room except you. Your black and white spotted blouse is pulled up, held between your teeth, the camera phone in one hand, the other is in your red lacey bra, holding, caressing the perfect curve of your breast, your pink nipple is just out, pinched between your finger and thumb.
Holy fuck. Fiery heat is rising in my chest.
The most arousing detail is your innocent but still challenging smile as you hold you blouse up in between your teeth. And of course the naughty glint in you big brown eyes as you look straight at me through the screen.
I breathe in deep as I write my next message.
ME: "Wow babe. That's quite a reminder.
Wish I would be there in that empty
bathroom with you."
KAT: "What would you do??"
ME: "Dunno but something would probably
break in the process."
You answer with a couple of smileys and a kiss emoji.
KAT: "Yeah, it's Maria's fault. She had a few
of those baby bottles stuffed in her bag."
ME: "Baby bottles??"
KAT: "Yeah, you know the ones that look
like a normal size vodka or whiskey
bottle had a baby. She got them from
her sister, she is a flight attendant."
I shake my head with a smile. Maybe I should join you after all - I think. I know we would have a good time, and I'm pretty sure I could convince you to do something naughty in one of the dark corners of the club. I remember your comment after a particularly fun night some months ago, as we were heading home, hand in hand, tired and satisfied; "You know...some nights I like flowers, fine dining and foreplay, but tonight I just wanted your cock in my mouth...".
I take a deep breath as the memory lingers.
ME: "Where are you now?"
KAT: "In the taxi with Tony. We couldn't fit into Charlie's car with the others."
I raise my eyebrows. Even through the pleasant warmth of arrousal, I feel an icy needle of jealousy stab into me. Tony, ha? I met the tall and handsome single guy on one of your office parties some months ago. Quite a specimen.
ME: "I didn't know that Tony is going."
It takes a few seconds until I see you type again.
KAT: "Yes, he is. Didn't I tell you last week?"
KAT: "You are not jealous are you?"
It sounds like you teasing me with it. You probably are.
You told me you find Tony attractive maybe 6 months ago. This wasn't something new, it was sort of a habit of yours. Half tease and half challenge, as I understood. You often pointed at random dudes on the beach or on the street describing - often quite in detail - what you find sexy about them and just laughed at my frown. Other times you picked out women and started asking me whether I like their hair or legs or ass. Usually I just shake my head at your comments.
But in some level I actually liked this side of you. And you knew that I do. Beyond the obvious jealousy there was something exciting in you taking interest in other guys. There was this perverted joy in the thought that our relationship might be on a bit of a shaky ground. That it's not completely safe, not completely....finished. I felt that at least in part, this is why we work well. You keep me on my toes. Having the feeling, that I may lose you to another makes me want you even more.
ME: "No, I'm not jealous. Just surprised that's all. You didn't mentioned him."
KAT: "Must have forgotten ;-)"
What the fuck??
Maybe I'm misunderstanding but your wink implies, that you didn't tell me about Tony on purpose.
Okay, if you want to play, we can play.
ME: "What is Tony doing now?"
KAT: "He's also on his phone."
ME: "Do you still find him attractive?"
KAT: "Of course."
I swallow hard as I type with slightly trembling fingers.
ME: "Would you want to see his cock?"
KAT: "Umm...Yeah...? Of course I would."
ME: "Would you want to suck his cock?"
KAT: "Well duh. What else would I do? Just
looking at it?"
ME: "Would you want to suck him off right
there in the taxi, and let him blow his
load in your mouth?"
KAT: "Probably..."
KAT: "Definitely!"
KAT: "I would be very satisfied with that lol."
KAT: "Why are you asking me this? What is
with you?"
I don't know what is with me. The blood is rushing into my head. The pleasant warm glow in my chest becomes a blazing heart and my cock starts to harden.
ME: "You are so fucking hot."
KAT: "Am I? Is this turning you on?"
No way back now.
ME: "Fuck yeah."
KAT: "Oookayyyy. So tell me, how turned
on you would be if you'd know that I
have his dick in my mouth right now?"
ME: "I'm already turned on just thinking
about it."
KAT: "Would you like it if I would do it wet
and sloppy and my face would be
covered with it?"
ME: "Fuck babe."
ME: "I'm getting hard just reading that."
ME: "And you think the driver would be looking at you in the mirror sucking him?"
KAT: "Of course he would, old creep."
ME: "And he would just let you two play on
the back seat without a word?"
KAT: "If he has a problem with it, I do him too."
Holy shit. This is almost too much. I don't know what to feel about that comment. Don't know what to write. I scroll back through the exchanged messages. The minutes stretch as I try to wrap my head around our conversation. I would never hear these things from you if we talk face to face. But over the phone, in the benevolent facelessness it's somehow affect me differently. My arousal is obvious and damn it feels good.
My phone vibrates again on my lap.
KAT: "We are at the club. Waiting for the
others then heading in."
I still can't bring myself to answer.
KAT: "Are you alright?"
ME: "Yeah, sure. That was just...unexpected."
KAT: "Sorry I didn't mean to..."
ME: "No, no it's fine. You didn't do anything
wrong. In fact, do you want to
continue?"
KAT: "I don't know, the others are here, we
are about to head in."
ME: "Okay then how about a game?"
KAT: "Yes...?"
ME: "I dare you."
KAT: "To what?"
ME: "I dare you to dance with Tony, grind