There is something about the rain that awakens something deep within me. It effects my emotions, my demeanor.....the very essence of my being. It begins from the moment that scent is in the air. That metallic, yet sweet smell......the one that tells not only the most seasoned of farmers that a "storm's a brewin'" but also the most sheltered of upper crust in their perfect world....that precipitation is, indeed on it's way.
The scent makes my body tingle all over. I know that my complete persona is about to make a sudden change. I do not understand why the weather affects me so....especially the rain. A mere drizzle changes me to a deeply moved and emotional little girl. Blue. Reflective. Distant.
A typical "shower" turns me into a little girl who longs to please the ones she loves. It makes me desire to be physically and spiritually closer to all others around me. It makes me long to be cuddled with....to be petted...to be praised...to feel the actual warmth of love...as if it were a blazing fire I could sit beside and soak in it's heat.
But a thunderstorm.....the passion of it....its force...its unpredictability....with it, I do not feel like a little girl at all. With it, I feel like a full grown woman. A woman with an insatiable urge within...some sort of hunger...like an animal that has been caged for so long....neglected and abandoned.... without morsel of food or affection. An amazing metamorphosis that begins with just that tantalizing scent.....the minuscule essence of what is to come. Nature is about to show the world who is in control and I .....the usually sweet, meek, playful little kitten within....am about to become a lustful, ravenous wildcat overcome by its unstoppable energy.
I inhale and it begins. I can almost taste it. The wind picks up and starts to gale. With its first gust, it begins to seduce me. It blows over me. Past me. It completely envelopes me like a lover's embrace. Its strong gusts penetrate the material of my clothing. My nipples become hard from the sensation. A sensual tingling has taken over my body. I fight it. I try hard to ignore it....but I cannot. In the distance, I see the sky light up . Bolts of lightning dance across the heavy dark clouds. Electricity. Such a powerful force. A gentle smile comes across my lips.