I woke up Saturday morning as my wife was coming out of our bathroom, dressed in her workout clothes. She has a routine most mornings, where she wakes up and does her bathroom "doodies" and then works out, before taking her shower to get ready for the day. I got out of bed and it took me about 45 minutes to get cleaned up and finish packing my bag for my weekend golf trip. I headed down stairs, and she had just finished her work out, and was standing by the fridge with a bottle of water.
She was glistening with sweat, and I guessed that she had used the elliptical machine since her clothes were clinging to her sexy little body. Like always when I see her all sweaty, I felt a stirring in my groin. I walked to her and kissed her neck, and asked her if she would give me a going away present.
She enjoyed my kissing for a few seconds, before ducking under me and heading to the doorway, saying that I needed to hit the road and she needed to hit the shower.
"I could spare a few minutes, and you know I love it when you are not squeaky clean," I said.
She rolled her eyes and stated, "Not being squeaky clean is one thing, being gross is a whole different matter. Trust me, you don't want to be anywhere near me. Enjoy your trip, and I'll be waiting for you, squeaky clean, when you get home tomorrow night."
I sighed with exaggeration, not surprised by her answer, but wanting her to know that I felt a lot different than she did. I said, "You are always sexy to me, and I've told you many times that it turns me on when you are dirty."
Now it was her turn to be frustrated, and her voice rose a little when she said, "Do I have to spell it out for you? I used the bathroom before I worked out this morning, like I always do. You know that, so why do you have to make me feel guilty for not wanting to gross you out?"
I didn't really mean to start an argument, but this was an issue with us. We had been married for 20 years, but she was still very self-conscious when it comes to hygiene. Even though I have told her that I love it when she is unclean, she simply does not believe me.
I grabbed my bag and looked her in the eye as I said, "When are you going to believe me that I love everything about you, and that means the way you smell and taste at all times. We have shared almost everything in our relationship, with the exception of when you think you are too dirty. I just wish you would trust me enough after all this time, to believe me when I say that I want every part of you at any time."
With that, I grabbed my keys and headed for the door. I kissed her on the cheek as I passed her, and whispered in her ear, "I love my wife, and every part of her. And that doesn't change because of what she's been doing, or what state her body is in. Have I ever been dishonest when it comes to that sort of thing?"
She bit her lower lip, and had a guilty look on her face as I headed out the door. I told her I would call her that night when I got back to the hotel after dinner, and I was gone. I didn't mean to make her feel bad for not wanting to have a quickie, as I didn't expect her to agree, but maybe it would loosen her up in the future.
I struggled in my golf game that afternoon as my mind was on my wife, feeling guilty for making her feel bad. She was always so open sexually, and was always willing to explore any fantasy I'd ever expressed, so it was not really a big deal that she was not comfortable being intimate when she felt nasty. My plan was to apologize to her when I called after dinner, and to convince her that I understood and I would not push her anymore.
Since my team had lost, we had to buy drinks, so I couldn't cut out early to get back to the hotel and call her to apologize. We had an early tee time on Sunday, so it wasn't too late when we left the restaurant to head back to the hotel. But as we were making the 20 minute drive, I received a text from my wife saying that she was beat and she was going to bed.
I responded that I would be in the room in less than 10 minutes, and that I really wanted to talk to her before going to bed. She replied that she was already falling asleep and that we could talk when I got home. I didn't sleep great that night.
Obviously, I was glad to be pulling in the driveway Sunday night around 7:00. I was a tired from playing 36 holes in the sweltering July heat, and was glad I had decided to grab a shower in the clubhouse at the course before making the 2 hour drive home. As I grabbed my bag and clubs from the back of the truck, I wondered if she was still mad at the way I had left the day before.
As I entered the house, it was dark and I heard music coming from the living room. I set my bag in the kitchen as I made my way to the living room. She was sitting on the couch with a glass of wine, and I could tell by the color in her cheeks that it was not her first glass. Knowing that look, my guess was that she had drank several glasses and would normally be feeling frisky, with her inhibitions loosened up. Too bad I fucked up before I left.
As I moved around the couch, I was preparing to get on my knees in front of her and apologize for being such an ass. But before I could get to her, she rose to her feet and stepped to me. She looked great, in a sundress and her hair in a ponytail. She put her finger to my lips before I could say anything, and put her other hand on my shoulder and turned my back to the couch and pushed me to sit.
I sat down and looked up at her, and wondered how I could have been so petty, she was so beautiful. I didn't care if there are times when she doesn't feel sexy, and I wanted her to know I loved our sex life. She sat on the ottoman, put her hands in her lap, and looked down at her lap before looking up to meet my eyes.