Later, back in our room, she decided to go down to the pool with the kids as I headed to my lesson with the pro at the hotel's tennis club. I changed for tennis as they left, then went to the bathroom to find sunscreen. On the floor, I saw that she'd taken those brown strapped shoes off, tossing them next to her white panties as she'd changed into her bathing suit. Without fully realizing it, I suddenly found myself on the floor, with my hands on the same strap she'd touched earlier that day in front of that man. I caressed her shoes as I thought of her feet in them, running my fingers on the thin leather straps, down to the cushioned bottom at the heel, then to the faint outline of her toes. I held her white underwear with my other hand, smelling her on both objects while imagining how I'd just seen her walking in that blue summer dress, taking these shoes off and putting them back on in different stores.
As soon as I started to play with myself, I felt this incredible shudder throughout my body. It's like I came before actually coming. My head filled with light for a second as I rubbed my cock on the smoothness of the cushioned bottom, down to the impression of her toes, and then between the leather straps (still warm from her walking in them). The desire I'd always felt for her feet now seemed such a part of me, like there was no longer a separation from all I longed for in my great obsession. I know this must sound crazy now, as I report the memory of it. In the moment though I felt closer to her than I ever have, even when I'm actually inside her during sex.
The longer I played with myself by playing with the thought of her feet in these shoes, the more I went in and out of this ecstatic feeling. I suddenly started to summon specific erotic memories. The best and most intense memories of my fetish with her feet returned as if they were happening now. Once again, as if for the first time, we were back on our living room sofa, watching a movie as she let me massage her feet. I tasted the popcorn I'd been eating as I saw myself rubbing the salt and butter from my fingers onto her feet, then sucking it off of her toes as she moaned and I moved my fingers between her legs. I then changed scenes, as though changing TV channels, seeing us at our favorite sushi place on a date without the kids. She slipped off her red suede shoes she'd worn with these tight black pants, and out of nowhere put her foot on my erection, leaving it there throughout a whole evening of small talk.
No sooner would I almost come from the frustration of such simultaneously painful connection and apartness than I once again returned to a much greater ecstasy. The best way I can describe it is like when we both come at the same time during sex. I know she wasn't actually here on the floor in the bathroom with me, but it really felt like she was, at least for one intense moment. This will sound sacrilegious I'm sure, but the whole experience became rather spiritual for me. If only for a fleeting few seconds, I really escaped my body, even as I ferociously rubbed myself into and against her shoes and panties. At that moment I knew what it meant to no longer fear the loss of anything in my life, even life itself.
Near an incredible orgasm, I did come back down to earth, so it's not like I lived in the incredible feeling for that long. Strange, but the very moment of coming, unlike the zillion other times I've masturbated since I was 12 years old, seemed almost anti climatic. I cleaned myself off, grateful not to have come directly on her shoes (though I did on her panties, which I tried my best to wipe away). Then I went off to my tennis lesson, and back to the usual routine of my life, where I once again kept wanting her and her beautiful feet, as if for the first time.