My back is to his chest as I sit on his lap. It's a weird feeling and I'm not talking about being impaled on his dick. That's also new but nothing I didn't anticipate: Some pain from having a ten-inch erection forced up my asshole, excitement and arousal at trying something new, and forbidden, largely underestimated pleasure from massive penetration so close to my genitals.
No, the real weirdness is the amputations. This is my first sex since my electrocution accident. My first time being intimate since my limbs were pruned off like I was overgrown sidewalk shade. So, here I am with a huge cock up my butt, my lover's fingers in my pussy and it's hella nice I have to admit, but the stumps feel so fucking weird.
First things first, I still feel the legs. They both end about 6-7 inches from my crotch in fleshy, blunt stumps covered in giant scars but I can FEEL my calves cramp as I extend the knees, and flex the toes that I don't have. I get dizzy as my eyes chance upon the container with the ashes of most of my real thighs and knees and shapely calves and dainty feet, sitting on a shelf.
So it's beyond weird that the real life indication of all that intense feeling of muscles and sinews contracting and cramping is only some subtle spasming and jiggling of flesh that happens where my legs were cut away and the remnants refashioned into blob like appendages that have no discernible purpose.
If I'm thrown off by the appearance and feeling of my non legs, I'm still devastated; absolutely, overwhelmingly devastated by the lack of my arms, while being butt fucked vigorously. The feeling of utter helplessness, already so intense when I'm not being fucked up my ass and fingered at the same time, is so amplified that my throat constricts and I occasionally find myself whining like a beaten dog.
By the time they cleaned away all of the dead, burnt flesh, I was left with only a stub under my shoulder on my right side, and a club like, ugly, disgusting thing that ends halfway between my shoulder and arm on my left side.
The stubby protrusion on my right allows me to wear clothing with straps but that's about the extent of its practical application. My left stump... Well I can barely bear looking at it. It's scarred, sure, but that's not the real issue. The real issue is that the bone in it ends a full two inches above the fleshy tip. When I move the damn thing around, the flesh sags like a cheap visual effect from a third-rate horror movie. I hate touching things with it. It folds like a limp dick. So, I keep my arm stumps motionless as much as I possibly can even though my brain screams at me to use them, to touch myself, to caress my nipples, to reach out and hold the shaft of my boyfriend's cock just before it goes into my overextended asshole...
My armlessness is incidentally how I ended up with a fat cock up my ass anyway. I asked to be fucked this way, sitting on his lap with my back to his chest, so that he could play with my breasts as he fucked me. Little did I know how he would use the opportunity.