"Are you doodling during my lecture?"
All eyes in the room drifted to my flushed cheeks. The professor looked at me sternly; he was known for being quite disciplined. I didn't think he would have noticed me sitting in the back of the class, tuning out of the world. It wasn't that I wasn't interested in most of my studies.
It was just that math made me want to cry. I seemed to just dissociate during these lectures. I mostly passed my math classes due to the pity of my other teachers. Going back to college, though, these classes were challenging. I didn't pass my standardized tests, so here I was, sitting in a remedial college math class, unable to pay attention to the lecture.
At least the professor was cute. Actually, really cute. I smiled a little and giggled nervously without thinking about it. He frowned, thinking perhaps that I wasn't taking this seriously. He cleared his throat. "I'd like to speak with you after class, please." He said before going back to his lecture.
"Yes, Sir," I respond as I fiddle with the tie around my neck, part of a school uniform. I, of course, wasn't taking this all too seriously, at least not as seriously as I should have. I sat still when the bell rang, and the students started filing out. The professor's eyes were straight on me. He beckoned me with a look to the front of the class after all the students had left.
"Tell me, do you have any other classes after this one?" he asked. I shook my head, and he stood up. He walked over to the door and closed it. He slowly turned the lock on the door and then turned to look at me. "That'll give us some privacy." My cheeks were completely red as he walked over to me.
"Did you think you can just get away with being a complete ditz in my class? That you can just giggle like a stupid schoolgirl, and I will just pass you because you are cute?"