What surprised her was that her feet hurt the worst.
For the last two nights she had been brought to this place, tormented, tortured and abused. And yet she felt better than she had felt in years. She felt released. The more he imprisoned her, the more he controlled her the more comfortable and free she felt.
The gravel really was hurting her feet and it was a long way from the warmth of the luxurious town car to her destination.
Each step brought her closer to her goal and her stomach flittered in anticipation. She ached with a deep hunger. For the last two nights he had brought her here - and to her shock and surprise simply left her. Left her to be the sexual tool of the people inside. She had been debased and humiliated but nobody had chosen to take her. To fuck her. Her mouth, anus and cunt ached to be filled.
Jim would return from his business trip tomorrow and she suspected that meant this was the last time she would be brought to this place. The wind fluttered her cape and her naked body shivered underneath. Below the edges of the blindfold she could occasionally make out her master walking a few feet ahead of her, a square shouldered silhouette in the evening haze, occasionally tugging on the leash attached to her collar making her stumble as the gravel bit into the soles of her naked feet.
She detected the odor of a cigarette on the breeze and in her mind saw Ray - her masters extraordinarily large driver - leaning against the car sheltering a match from the wind.
Last night she had counted the steps from the car to door.
One hundred and three.
Still 86 to go.
It really began not two nights ago but more than three weeks. Or perhaps it began almost three years before that. When she first met her master. She had tried to break it off with him when Jim proposed. He had respected her decision. At the time she believed she could live without him. That Jim would come to fill that space in her life. Jim was easy going and fun and she loved him dearly. But try as she might she could never reveal her darker needs to him. Playfully she would misbehave and present herself for spanking - trying to unleash the stern male anger that she knew must be locked within him. He would play along for a few moments but then become distracted.
It wasn't that that had bad sex. Not at all she smiled to herself taking another step. He fucked with a passion and strength that she adored. But her itch had to be scratched. She needed a man to take control of her. To overpower her. It was with the deepest shame that she recontacted her master just six months after getting married. He had never talked of it. Never asked. He was only interested in using her. Which, frankly - was just the way she liked it.
But things had changed and the last three weeks where agony.
She had failed her master, disappointed him.
Tonight she was sure she would win him back.
Part of her knew it wasn't her fault but another part embraced the responsibility. She had failed him. She had not given herself fully. He had pissed on her many times. She had come to love the humiliation of being his toilet and thrilled to stinking of his fluids as he used her. She would even bring her pissed soaked auburn locks to her nose while he fucked her to deeply inhale the scent of him.
But this time she choked -gagged. He had forced his semi erect member fully into the back of her throat before emptying his bladder. She had swallowed his piss on several occasions but this time her body betrayed her. Her throat closed and she retched and coughed out his prick.
She had begged forgiveness but he left anyway, not even coming on her. Just zipped up and left.
She was never as miserable as that moment alone, shivering in the empty bathtub.
Three weeks had passed with not a word. Emails and phone calls went unanswered. She was beginning to think it was over. The last hope was Jim's upcoming 3 day business trip. Her lover always mysteriously appeared whenever Jim went away and she held onto the hope that he would return to her.
79 steps.
She had waited all day, in just the way he taught her. He had a key to the house and for six hours she lay prone on the bed as he liked, her skirt pulled up and panties down, her buttocks raised and ready. She resisted the temptation to masturbate. She must save herself for him.
The longer she waited the worse the anguish. Would he come? Was it over? Had she failed him? She swore that she would do anything - absolutely anything no matter how degrading or filthy to have him back.
But she had to eat and as the light began to fade she pulled up her panties and, miserable made her way to the kitchen. With dinner only half made she knocked over a jar of pickles in excitement when she heard a light rapping on the front door and flew to open it.
At the end of the driveway a long black limousine. His limousine. Ray, his driver held the passenger door open. She didn't hesitate for a second. She could not even remember if she closed the door behind her.
The interior of the car was dark but she smelled his cologne when she was a few feet away and breathed relief. As she stooped into the rear passenger door she opened her mouth to speak but yelped in surprise as she felt his hand in her hair and pulled her forcefully into the car. But the pain from her hair is quickly replaced with a rush of pleasure as he presses his lips to hers, forcing her mouth open, his tongue in her mouth.
The car is motion when he releases her and pushes her away. She knows better than to speak first but she is giddy. He still wants her.
His voice is stern, tinged with anger but there is warmth hidden there also.
"You know I am disappointed in you." She nods and casts her eyes downwards. His tone changes, more sympathetic. "It's my fault really. I thought you where fully trained. I thought I could spare you this..."
He trails off and long silence falls between them. "But it's necessary. I want you to know the next few nights will not be easy for me either. But it has to be done. I will not be coming with you. This journey you must make alone."
Not coming? Where was she going? Where was he going?
Carefully and slowly he peels off her clothes as he talks and she catches a glimpse of Ray watching her unfolding nakedness in the rearview mirror until she is completely undressed sitting alongside her lover - the contrast of her pale skin against his dark suit.
"Suzanne," he so rarely used her name that it shocked her. usually she was content with 'bitch', 'whore' and 'slut' when he addressed her. "You know I love you but I must complete your training. For both of us. Either you will survive the humiliations that I am about to expose you to or you will not. One way or another we shall resolution."