I spent the whole weekend in sweaters, being Anita. I didn't go out, still shaken from what happened in the bar toilets on Friday night. But in a strange way, my thoughts kept coming back to the image of Stephanie penetrating my mouth, and although I was terrified from the experience, a part of me wanted to relive it.
It was hard to go back to Adrien on Monday. I worked as a security patrol and my shift began in the early afternoon. I dug up my male clothes, removed any sign of make-up and tried to hide as much of my curly hair as possible under a hat and the rest was tied on my back. The good thing of being a fighting champion whose punch made a guy's heart to stop was that nobody made fun of you, no matter what you were wearing.
I had a partner and we patrolled the city two days and three nights a week. He didn't even look at my long curls. Thankfully, the present times gave us images of all sorts of strange haircuts and outfits, some of which we came across closely at night, so I wasn't so interesting. Before and after work, throughout the week, I sometimes turned into Anita, but only when I was alone at home. Elena checked on me every day, still feeling guilty for bringing me to the club on Friday.
The workweek was soon over and I was free to be Anita again. I met with Elena both Saturday and Sunday for a coffee. It seemed that Stella was feeling sorry for me and was blaming Elena for what happened with Stephanie. I felt like I needed to repair the relationship between my new lesbian friends so I tried to talk with Stella on Monday. Something in her voice told me that things are going in a very bad way and that Stephanie humiliating me was just the tip of the iceberg. Their issues were hard to solve.
Another workweek went by. I kept fantasizing about Stephanie. This was making me very uncomfortable. I was afraid that this attraction might turn dangerous at some point.
On Friday night Elena called me, asking to go out. She seemed off so I had to stop jerking in front of the mirror to my beautiful image and I decided to let Anita go take some air in the chilly night. I didn't have time to prepare so I just put on a long heavy black sweater, way oversized, tucked the tight turtleneck nicely under my chin, put on a pair of high leather boots and went out.
Quickly the wind crawled under the sweater between my half-naked thighs. The big sweater wasn't long enough to reach my knees but managed to hide my panties. My hair was free, covering most of my face. I liked the messy feel and I definitely liked how men kept staring at me behind their girlfriends' backs.
Elena was waiting for me on a bench in the park. She was wearing a long brown chunky sweater coat with my yellow cowl neck sweater underneath. Her face told me something was wrong. I sat and patiently waited for her to drop the bomb I was expecting.
-- It's over -- Elena finally spoke. She was talking about Stella. Nobody could ruin Elena's mood like her girlfriend. Or, should I say -- ex-girlfriend.
-- How bad is it?
-- This time it's for good. I can't take some words back. I crossed the line -- She placed her face in her palms.
-- Do you want me to talk to her?
-- No. I don't want someone else to clean my mess.
I thought about Elena and Stella for a while. At first they looked like they were meant for each other. But then...
-- Maybe you're not meant for each other.
Elena looked at me.
-- How come?
-- You're a living fire, a little demon, if you know what I mean. She's an angel, the perfect friend, but she's not the partner material you need.
-- The fuck you know about Stella being an angel?
-- She's nice to people -- I said calmly, trying to evade the storm.
-- And I'm not? -- She shouted at me. I looked at her and lifted my eyebrows.
-- Like I said, a little demon.
Elena punched me in the shoulder.
-- Shut up!
We stared at the moonlight, dancing on the lake. The silence was getting heavier and heavier. I got tired of this, I stood up and passed a hand to Elena.
-- C'mon, let's buy some ice-cream and talk trash about Stella!
Elena looked at me.
-- What?
-- Isn't this what girls do in situations like this?
Elena seemed confused for a moment but then she waved a hand and jumped.
-- It's still early for the trash phase -- She said. Then we walked a few steps and she added: -- Maybe in an hour.
I smiled and we walked to a nearby fast-food stand and then to a liquor store where I bought us a bottle of vodka. Then we returned to the park and sat on what seemed as an abandoned bench in a corner alley near the trees.
-- You know, you really need fake tits -- Elena laughed while drinking straight from the bottle. -- You are flat as a plank!
-- Yeah, that'd be good! -- I took a sip as well.
-- I really don't get it -- sweaters? How come?
-- I don't know. Maybe something happened in my childhood. But a nice sweater is soft and sensual like the woman herself. It's like seeing the true female aura -- gentle and cozy.
-- That's actually pretty poetic! I bet you slept with a lot of girls in sweaters, bringing up stuff like this.
-- Actually, no. Most find it weird. I was denied too many times.
-- Really? That's odd.
-- You say it's odd because you are different as well. Your world is full of people like Stella and Stephanie, but mine isn't. It's one of the reasons I hated being Adrien.
The vodka kept coming.
-- Tell me, what do you want to do when you see a woman in sweater?
-- I want to touch her. I want to feel the softness of her body.
Elena giggled. She saw me staring at her and hid behind the bottle.
-- You want to feel the softness of her body?
-- In a way...
-- Do you want to touch me now?
I looked at the heavy knit of the sweater coat. I nodded.
-- Well... -- Elena looked around. -- Why not do it then?
I felt a big lump in my throat. But I couldn't resist not to try. So I placed my fingers in the itchy knit on her shoulder and rubbed it a little bit. I absolutely loved it.
-- How did you feel? -- She asked.
-- Excited -- I smiled shyly.
-- So? This was it? You just wanted to touch my coat?