THINGS DON'T ALWAYS GO THE WAY YOU EXPECT
Another boring night. My name is Steve. I moved to Arizona a couple years ago. As so common, another divorce man, 51, in decent shape but living comfortably without many aggravations at the moment. My problem is that I can't stop having the same thoughts in my mind so often. Thoughts about the kind of woman I desire to meet.
I lived in Vegas for almost 30 years and with my youth being in the 80's and 90', it was rock and roll, drugs and lot of play. I was no Casinova but I had my share of adventures. I found a lot of pleasure in pleasing women and of course being pleasured. It was strictly straight sex and in, truth, not very kinky but it was still a lot of fun. There were threesomes and even more a couple times. Like I said, enjoyed every minute of it, ok most minutes of it.
When I got into my late 30's I got involved with a woman and for the next 15 years I lived a life that I'm sure a lot of you are familiar with. The sex dwindled to the point we might as well been married. Later in this relationship, I got into reading a lot of the erotic stories that are online and watching some videos when the time presented itself.
The porn at the beginning was rather vanilla but as it continued I started reading more stories that involved various kinky behaviors. I had always enjoyed women who dressed provocatively. I mean, what would you rather see? A naked woman or a woman in a corset, garters, nylons, fuck me heels. Yea, right, I know. I started watching a lot of videos with women dressed in this manner. I have to confess that none turned me on more than a woman in a black corset her garters stretching her seamed nylons high on her hips. Black boots or pumps with four inch spike heels would adorn her feet. Panties so sheer you can't keep from staring. Then the makeup, especially the eyes that seemed to look right through you.
You can probably guess where this is heading. You would be right. These women usually had a man kneeling in front of them willing to do as told, willing to be used, or abused by these women. Dominant women. I started reading more stories involving feminine domination and couldn't believe how some of them made me feel. What would it really be like? Could I do what the men in these stories did? I got into reading some of the stories involving cuckolding. I had never heard of it and had no idea that women enjoyed that and really couldn't believe how much it seemed the man liked it. Damn, don't know if I could do that.
Then got into watching the videos and reading the stories about bondage and discipline, especially the ones where the woman was in charge. What must it feel like to be bound to where you can't stop whatever might happen? What if it hurts too badly and you can't stop it. What must that feel like? Scary I believe to a degree but I couldn't stop thinking about it. How would I react? Why did I feel like I wanted to find out?
Finally, the woman I was living with and I parted ways. Very amicable, which was good. The problem now was I had nothing from stopping from doing more than just watch videos or read kinky stories. Was it best just to leave it in my fantasies? I resisted for awhile but once I discovered craigslist, I knew what had to happen. It wasn't long till women could read this ad on craiglist.
'Middle-aged single man would love to meet a dominant woman
who likes being in charge. Very inexperienced but willing to try
anything once, more than once if told. I'm divorced, live alone and
can host. Have been reading stories and watching videos involving
smbd themes and very curious about it all and how I would reach.
If you are that special lady, please reply.
Steve
I can't tell you how nervous I felt after posting this ad. It was about 3 days later
when I got my first answer. It sounded promising, so we decided to meet for
drinks. We met on Friday night at this nice bar. We introduced ourselves, her
name was Jessica. She was only about 40 and was attractive. Her outfit was sexy
but not over the top and not dominating looking at all and I was rather glad about
that. I was nervous she would show up looking like a hooker, making me look like
a john. We had a drink and made small talk for a short time.
I was looking at her and she had almost a smirk on her face when she looked at
me and said, 'You look like you might be gay. Lot of submissive men turn out to
be fags.'
I couldn't believe she just came out and said that. 'No I'm not gay, I'm totally
straight.'
'Look at me when you answer me Stevie. It's ok if you are. Fag boys can so much
fun. But you are way too manly for that, aren't you Stevie?'
I look up at her and her face doesn't look like she's joking around with the questions. 'I'm not a fag, ok.'
'Don't get prissy with me Stevie. You're the one wanting to meet a dominant
woman, show me respect. Apologize.'
Damn, don't think this is going well. 'I'm sorry, I'm just not used to people
accusing me of being gay. I'm sorry Jessica.'
'Call me Miss Jessica and get up in front of me, head down and apologize like you
mean it.'
I can't believe what is happening. Maybe I should just go but I don't. I slide out of
the booth and go to her side and stand there, lower my head. 'I'm really sorry Miss Jessica. You just kind of surprised me with that gay stuff. I'm really sorry and I hope you will forgive me.'
'Go sit down,' she tells me and I do. 'How did it feel Stevie, standing there
apologizing to a woman you don't even know. A woman who told you she
thought you looked gay.'
'I have to admit it was embarrassing Miss Jessica.'
'What if I would have told you to get on your knees to apologize Stevie boy?'
'I don't know if I could have done that Miss Jessica. Discretion is important to me.'
'You don't want others to know that you are a submissive boy Stevie?'
'No Miss Jessica, I was looking for something private and discrete.'
'Good submissive boys don't worry about what they want. There is only one thing
important to them. I know you know what that is Stevie. Tell me.'
I look down, quietly, 'They should want to please and obey their Mistress.'
'Good boy, your answer to my earlier question should have, "I would have
got on my knees and apologized to you Miss Jessica. Do you understand Stevie?'
My head spinning. I'm starting to realize this isn't fantasy roleplay like I was
thinking about. This woman really is dominant and is testing me to see if I'm
really serious about this. 'Yes Miss Jessica, I understand but this is all so new to me and I'm trying, really I am.'
'I understand boy, I want you to do something for me. Do you think you can do
that?'