He had intended to not let her occupy his mind. He had, with great convictions, settled upon limits for their conversations both in time and scope. But as he checked an instant messaging service and saw that she was there, all of those determinations evaporated. He was light headed and a stirring in his stomach swept through him, and like a man in a trance he had clicked on her name and typed "hi".
He never knew with certainty what her mood might be. Casual, or guarded... or with sweet surprising abandon. He was a careful and calculating man who prized himself in being able to stay in control in situations... and made his living with those skills. But he also knew he had crossed so many of his own boundaries, and of hers. He knew that better sense would have warned him of hitting the "send" button with some things he had shared with her. Personal confessions and embarrassing pictures of which he rolled his eyes and then blinked hard to try to forget that he had been such a fool.
Somehow he wanted her to see him, to know him... to be forewarned of his... his what? His darker soul? His wild abandon? He wasn't sure himself. This was new and uncharted waters for him and he felt as though at any moment he would be cast upon the rugged reefs or left adrift on some emotional dessert isle.
His breath came short when her response popped up "hi" to his. His fingers began to lose the dexterity of keyboard skills of which he was proud and his mind swirled. A good deep breath, and he determined to keep it casual today! "How's your day?"
He waited. He had no idea why she would bother to take her time to chat with him? He had seen her picture and knew she was cute. A thousand other men from the chat rooms would have killed to change places with him... he was strangely honored that she was so accepting of him and his interests. She replied... "I'm feeling fantastic!"
His spirit lifted and a smile crossed his face. She was in a good mood. The day before had been a day of excitement. They had chatted and set a "rendevous." It seemed that both of them felt a stirring each time they chatted and their conversations had been intimate. She had dressed for him the day before. Stockings and black lacy panties. A long skirt to cover the way she loved to pleasure herself during their conversations... sitting on her leg with her heal tucked up in intimate places.
He was a little embarrassed because he was so keyed up that he was almost beyond constraints when the telephone rang and he heard her voice. He wanted to please her and hear her voice crescendo with the pleasure of their being together, but as they talked he found himself approaching that precipice over which he had no control and he could only groan with the release that had so conquered him.
She was so sweet about it. Through the day as they "IM"ed he knew she was still not fully satiated and he had longed to have pleasured her until she could only moan "No more!" But he knew that her pleasure that day was to come at her own command and within her own relm of satisfaction.
Then the screen came up... "Can we talk?"