Welcome back pervs. Miss me? Yeah? Or did you miss my Mom? Uh huh the whole story yeah? Haha, where was I? Oh yeah, the letter. Guys(possibly ladies too) when I say I was fucking pissed, well that's an understatement. Okay, let's jump back in.
"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!" I screamed at the letter as anger grew inside me.
Was this a sick joke? My blood was boiling. I immediately grabbed my phone and rang my mom. Straight to voicemail. So I sent her a message.
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK MOM? HOW COULD YOU? YOU FUCKING SUCK! HOW IS THIS EVEN REMOTELY FAIR??? I WANT THE KEYS AND YOU WILL NEVER HOLD THEM AGAIN!
After sending the message I started pacing around my room as I began to talk to myself.
"Why would she do this? We had an agreement. She broke the rules. I told her I had a date. I FUCKING TOLD HER ABOUT PAIGE!" I screamed. "It's okay, it's okay. She knows about the cage and she'll be cool." I tried to reassure myself.
"But will it be cool? Will she be okay that your mom has intentionally held on to the keys? Or is she going to think you're some sick Batesy loser? She had already warned you." A voice in the back of my head whispered.
#DING# My phone bleeps. Paige had sent me her location.
"FUCK!" I shouted stomping my feet like a child having a tantrum. "Relax, just relax. There's nothing you can do. You're caged, and she'll act how she acts. Hell she said she wanted to see what I was like 'unlocked' that doesn't exactly mean she's gonna inspect you. Let's just get through the evening."
I sat on the train, staring at scenery that rapidly changed as the train soared past.
It had been 90 minutes since I had read my mom's note and I was still seething with anger. I had written and deleted almost a dozen messages to my mom.
I closed my eyes and sighed. There isn't a reality that Paige doesn't think I'm a loser. My Mom had screwed me over, and just as I was beginning to enjoy chastity. Actually, that's a lie. I loved it. The build up to the release, the euphoria of the anticipated climax. How well regulated I felt. And now that joy has been replaced with resentment and betrayal.
#DING# My phone bleeps. A message from Paige...
Hey when you get here tell the doorman "PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA!"
I messaged back, okay. With a thumbs up emoji. And she responded with a blowing a kiss emoji.
"Gawd, she's so going to ghost me after tonight." I whelped to myself.
The train arrived at the station, I got my phone out and navigated to the location. During my slow walk, I was thinking maybe I should cancel, until I was actually unlocked. But thought Paige might be annoyed with me. I felt so pathetic. Slightly emasculated.
"Surely I can't meet Paige while in a mood?" I argued with myself.
"Got any money?" A voice called out.
It was a homeless man on a stoop with a blanket over his legs.
"Sorry I don't have any change."
"That's alright, I take notes, Amex, Visa or MasterCard." He yelled back.
I nervously laughed and carried on walking. That dude has real life problems and I was being pissy little bitch making myself angrier for no reason. I'm locked! It is what it is. If tonight doesn't work out. Fuck it. Then were plenty of other girls interested too.
I rocked up to the place and gave the doorman the password. He opened up the door and I heard music playing, I walked in and the music got louder. It was a club-bar hybrid. Like imagine a club and they got the VIP lounge. But this was all open. There must've been a hundred people in here.
I waded through the crowd and eventually found Paige.
"Hey you made it!" She screams wrapping her hands around me and giving me a hug.
Before I can even reply she's leading me by the hand and is introducing me to her friends.
"This is Ally, Tina, Dillion, Susan, Marc, Lexi, Mikey, Chrissy, Jay, Clarke, Benny, Morgan, Lucy and Missy."
I generically say Hi to them all. Shake a few hands and just stand awkwardly as Paige sits right back down and carries on talking to either Tina or Ally. I don't know what I was expecting, but a group hang wasn't it.
About ten minutes go past and I'm feeling out of place. I haven't really spoke to anyone. I'm pretty much just looking around. Then I catch Missy staring at me.
"Hey, I'm going to the bar. Give me a hand?" She asks.
"Sure."
Walking into the toilet and there two guys in there and there is several urinals open but the one stall is in use. I didn't want to flash my cage, so I waited patiently. Annoyingly Marc walked in shortly after just as the two other guys walked out.
"You good?" He asked, as he gave me a weird look as he walked over to a urinal.
"Shy bladder." I mumble.
"Ah, I hear ya."
Now I wasn't being a creep. Really I wasn't. Out of my peripherals I saw Marc whip out a massive schlong. Like fucking huge. He was using to hands to fucking pee for Christ's sake.
The stall door opened and this guy walked out, I didn't even care about the smell I just ran in and slammed the door shut.
Embarrassed that I just saw his dick, I shouted out. "So how do you know, Paige?"
"We used to work together." He replied after a short pause.
There is no way. I tell myself. I've seen almost all of her scenes. Surely I'd remember him with her?
"Oh yeah?" I said, as calmly as I could.
"Yeah. But the shit got shelved unfortunately, so didn't really get much bank for it."
"Huh?"
"Oh shit. Sorry do you not know about Paige?" He asked, sounding genuinely worried.
Flushing the toilet I step out the stall and go to wash my hands.
"Erm, yeah. Yeah I do." I tell him like it's no big deal.
"Thank fuck for that. Sorry, I didn't want to out her." He laughed relieved, as he patted me on the back. "So yeah, no um we shot a scene and it was about the same time that her Cuckold Incorporated scene came out and the execs wanted her to be the new Princess of BBC porn, so our scene got cut and they tied her down for interracial only scenes."
"Oh, oh okay. Didn't know it works that way."
"For sure. It's ninety nine percent marketing once they get the right girl, and Paige, well she blew up."
"Oh, that's cool."
"Yeah, was great for her. Just a bit shit for me." He laughed as we walked out and back into the crowd.
I'm not gonna sit here a lie and say the thought of Paige taking Marc's monster did cross my mind from time to time. Because it did. Though it had been a couple of hours since I saw the beast, it was very much on my mind. The small talk with Paige's friends did help distract me, but I did find myself looking at Marc with envy.
"Dude has the biggest dick in the world and I'm locked in a cage...by choice. Well partly by choice." I mumbled under my breath.
All of Paige's friends had some connection to the porn world. Though I didn't know most of them. That had me thinking a lot on how we must tend to watch the same videos over, or at least consistently follow the same people.
"Having fun?" One of Paige's friends asked.
"Hey, erm yeah. Everyone seems cool. Sorry I've forgotten your name."
"Missy."
"Sorry, Missy. Yeah I am. Everyone's been, like, super nice."
"That's good. Now about you and Paige."
A weird sense of horror fell over me as Missy uttered those words.