I never considered myself gay. Quite the opposite, actually, I was as straight as any guy I'd ever met. I wasn't necessarily opposed to gays either, I just wasn't one. But I dated this girl named Nikki who is absolutely convinced that everyone has some strand of not-straight in them. Maybe you're gay, maybe you're bi, maybe you're into something else I don't know about but is undoubtedly a fetish somewhere. Nikki believes that everyone has something in them that isn't vanilla, and she wanted to help you find it. For your own good of course.
I'm willing to try anything once, a piece of advice I picked up as a kid and have lived by ever since. It's how I came to study foreign languages and cultures, how I came to enjoy such a variety of foods, and how I met Nikki in a random theater production I signed up for just because I'd never been in one before. Nikki got the female lead, I got to be a side character with a few convincing lines if I do say so myself, and a little after the show wrapped up, we started dating.
To stay on topic as much as possible, I won't go into the full politics of Nikki, but to put forth the relevant part: she believed that "normal" was the face people put on to fit in to polite society, and that because "normal" was all anyone sees, the mistake is frequently made that people start to think they are "normal" inside and out. She wanted everyone to embrace their "weird," maybe not out in the open, that's what "normal" is for, but in their own private lives, everyone should find what they were and what they wanted and live like that.
Full disclosure, I do not necessarily think her ideal was wrong, I just think she was a bit aggressive in her pursuit of said ideal. Not that I minded much, like I said, I'm not trying to get into the politics of Nikki, only the relevant part, and the relevant part here is that she brought those ideals to bed. It made for hands down the most varied and enjoyable sex in my life. It also made for some awkward moments where one of us turned out not really be into that, thanks but please let's not do it again.
When Nikki said we might bring another man too bad for a three-way, I was open to the idea. I'm not overly jealous, so if I'm still participating, I see no reason why she can't have some extra fun. I can only be in one place at a time after all. I told her as much and she laughed. Turns out, she had that kind of three-way before. She said we could do that if I wanted, but she more meant the other guy for me.
As I said at the top of this story, I always considered myself straight, so I naturally vetoed the idea. I don't think it counts against my motto, I was reasonably sure I wouldn't enjoy it so I didn't think it mattered. Saves time to just go ahead and skip it. She seemed dissatisfied and wanted to argue the point, but in the end I guess she decided an idea I was so opposed to wouldn't be worth submitting me to. We moved on to other adventures.
Probably about two weeks later, Nikki was giving me a blowjob. She was always very good at that, and by this point, she had my soft spots down pat. But I had had a rough couple of days, trouble at work, I had bombed a test in one class and had another coming up in a class I liked less. My mind was elsewhere and I just wasn't quite getting there. This was, of course frustrating for Nikki because on the one hand, she knew she knew what I liked so if she couldn't get me off something was wrong and on the other hand, blowjobs were not her favorite thing in the world. She did them mostly because I liked them and they could usually be done in a few minutes, unless she was specifically drawing it out.
As I was sitting here, not really fully involved in the delightful things Nikki was doing to me, I felt something new in the same general area she was working. It wasn't much, but it was enough to bring my focus back down there and in almost no time at all we were done. Nikki was happy it was over and I was happy to have gotten what I had. Boys will be boys, and I do not apologize for my own simplicity. A couple days later, I had taken my other test and didn't think I had done so well, and so we wound up in the same situation. Again, Nikki was somehow able to draw my attention to her efforts and we were done in no time all.
I didn't really think about the event at all, and we went back to business as usual. My second test came back better than I thought it would, and everything at work had straightened out. It was a week and a half, maybe two weeks afterwords that I started to feel a little dissatisfied in Nikki's headwork. She was doing what she always did, what I had always enjoyed, but for some reason, I just wanted a little more. I brought it up that I still liked blowjobs, of course, but whatever she had done when I was in my funk might be worth bringing back. She smiled and said she would start incorporating it into the routine.
The next night (I had to work that night, or we would have done it then), Nikki was doing her thing and I was enjoying it with the slightly lowered appreciation I had had for the past few days. Then I felt it, the strange thing she had done that brought me back to the action. It was just the tiniest thing, but it worked. I tried to hold on, to savor whatever it was she was doing. It wasn't until a split second before I finished that I realized what her secret was. As Nikki drank up everything I gave her, I focused on what I thought it was. Sure enough, when she was done and pulled away I felt exactly what I expected to. Nikki had slid a finger into my ass, not all the way, but enough to grab my attention.
I kind of wanted to object, remember I thought I was straight, but I thought better of it. I was secure in my sexuality, I had literally asked her for it, and even if I did like it, so what? I enjoyed it and that's what it was all about. Over the next month or two, she continued with her new trick, occasionally putting her finger in deeper, sometimes drawing her finger in and out or moving it around, and, ever so rarely, even using more than one finger at a time.