I was talking to some of my college buddies about feeling blue and they all recommended Dr. Annette. I got her number online and I made an urgent appointment for my feelings of depression. She asked me if I am suicidal, homicidal, hallucinating, or paranoid and I said "No". Then she says she will see me. She asks if I know why I am depressed and I say "Yes, but I am too embarrassed to say over phone" and she says she understands. She agrees to see me soon since she just had a cancellation. While talking to her I can hear soft but heavy low pitched breathing in the background that is sporadic but vague. She says she has a patient soon but she can see me at 1130 and she says to go to the back door of her clinic. I got lucky, since she had a cancellation. She charges 200 dollars an hour but comments that there are added fees for special services. That is expensive but she comes highly recommended so I figure she is worth it. I wonder if she looks like her pictures online. She is hot. I wonder what the special services are.
I get to the clinic and it looks like she practices out of her home. I thought that was neat and old fashioned. I get there at 1130 sharp. A tall handsome guy in a dark suit walks out saying bye to the doctor.
The doctor then opens the back gate with a big beautiful smile and seems to need to catch her breath.
A cute college girl scoots by through the backyard gate with her bike and tells the doctor she will be back to file records on Sunday. Her hair is wet.
The doctors hair is wet too and I thought that was weird since I knew she had a patient before me. She looks me up and down quickly and nods her head and shakes my hand firmly. While shaking my hand, she holds on to my hand a little longer than normal, and while looking me in my eyes.
"Hi , I'm Dr. Annette. Nice to meet you."
"I'm Brandon" I respond softly.
She tells me to follow her to the office, so we walk in the back yard and then up a few steps. I can't but stare at her ass and the way that she sways it back and forth as she goes up the stairs. Dr. Annette has this super cute bounce in her step. She is wearing a maroon and white suit dress that hugs her curves perfectly. She is intimidatingly hot in her outfit. I make a mental note to use the visual later that night when I am home alone.
"Don't mind the dogs barking" she says, "they will quiet down soon."
They sound like they are on the other side of the house. One big dog bark and one little dog yapping. Her office is in the back of the house and a little small and cramped but sufficient. She puts some clutter away as we enter room. She quickly picks up a white cloth and throws it behind the examining table by the window. She tried to not let me see that but I did. It looked like a panty but I was sure I was mistaken.
She tells me to sit in the seat and introductions follow and I start to get nervous since I am embarrassed. I fill out the forms and talk. She sits on a chair with her skirt hiked up a little and I can see a hint of her panties. Maybe it was my imagination, but I couldn't help myself, it was all I could do with her sitting on her chair seat and her hips prominently presenting. She has no idea I might be able to see her panties and I forced myself not to stare down there. Feeling nervous, I force myself to take deep breaths.
Eventually, I disclose that my depression is related to poor confidence of sexual desirability and "no hot girl on campus would give me a hand job either". I tell her how lonely I am at college and have trouble connecting with the coed babes. She then explains to me about growing up and about sexuality and how one needs to be patient and wait for the right girl. Dr Annette says it is normal to be anxious about relationships and the opposite sex. She says I am attractive and she feels that I will be fine in the real world. She smiles a lot and almost seems to flirt with me making me nervous. I am intimidated with how hot she is and her status as a doctor.
She says I need to make a conscience decision to be more confident, and "fake it till I make it."
So I say I will do that right now. She has a puzzled look. Then I absent mindedly ask her to give me a hand job since she is so beautiful . She refuses adamantly, but laughs and says that was not what she meant. She says she gives me credit for being a creative quick learner. She says maybe we should end visit since things are getting awkward. I plead with her to give me a chance and I won't make any more jokes.
She doesn't believe it when I tell her guys at college talk about her and how they make sexual comments about her all the time. I tell her how one fraternity makes their candidates cum on her pictures as part of an initiation ceremony and she nods as if she already knew that and isn't surprised. That was why I looked her up online and confirmed how hot she was. She blushed a lot and kept clearing her throat nervously occasionally losing her composure. I tell her that I tell them not to talk about her like that since I respect her and she thanks me for protecting her reputation. She says she likes when her guy protects her so she says I am a natural with women.
She explains how important her reputation is and she doesn't like knowing about guys lusting after her like that but says she is used to it since others have said the same thing many times in the past. She shakes her head dismissively. She has heard it before from others but she can't stop it and she says that guys make thinks up, especially sexual fantasies. She says the internet messed up my generation due to porn and I tell her I agree. I confess that I am attracted to her and she nods as if it is OK to her.
I tell her there are sites dedicated to MILF and doctor settings and she says she is well aware of it. She is flattered and says she is too old for me to be attracted to her but I disagree. It makes me feel like less of a freak. She doesn't judge me. I can't believe how comfortable I feel with her. She gets nervous when she sees me staring at her tits and starts to say maybe she should refer me to a sex therapist. By this time I am rock hard sitting down and she notices the bulge in my pants. Her skirt is still hiked up and I am beside myself. I hope she didn't see me stare, but I know she did.
She quickly changes her mind when my feelings are hurt and I am rejected by her. It is as if she can't deny anyone anything if she feels sorry for them. I make a mental note to be persistent. I ask her if she makes videos since some porn stars look just like her and she gets upset saying she would never do that since it is not professional and sleazy. She reminds me not to make irritating comments. However, she asks me if I really thought she could be successful with something like that and I tell her "Yes.".
I apologize to her and explain that it is a compliment but I can't help but put my feet in my mouth when I am nervous. , she is supportive about my feelings and flattered.