The reality of the morning slipped back into my unwrapped thoughts and for the first time, I knew in my heart, I had a real problem. The weeks that followed were full of everything opposite of confidence. What have I done wrong, what's missing, is he having an affair, is it all over, and finally, can I fix it. Michael isn't stupid, he knew things weren't as they should be. He tried everything he could to right the boat. He applied all of his Alpha Male strengths. It would have worked, I would have gladly went back to the normalness of our life at the time if it weren't for a tiny discontented voice, pointing out the aura, the disconnected space between us. I was watching my Alpha Male try with all his heart and fail to bring himself back into the marriage. I decided I wasn't going to play along. I was scared, heart pounding scared, I said "You can't fix this with strength, your heart has to join in, I can't bear to see you this way, it's just too hard, I don't know what I'm doing wrong, maybe we should just let it be and go" Michael, my strength, my protector, my rock, crumbled. Sadness filled the room, his shoulders slumped, despair crept into his strong featured face and the only words he could find to say was "it's all my fault, I'm sorry. It's not your fault". Just Imagine, our lives are falling apart, Michael has treated me better then any wife has been treated, he has had no affair, done nothing, zero, wrong, and he is still trying to protect me from hurt by shouldering all the blame. He kept trying to summon his usual strength, to get on top again, but he couldn't, it wasn't there. He wanted something, needed something. I didn't have a clue what and neither did he.
I finally burst. I started screaming at him. You selfish stupid man, you cannot be the only one to blame, who the fuck do you think you are. You do not have to be the strong one all the fucking time. You do not have to be a rock twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. No human being can possibly stand up to that much, you stupid stupid man. I can't believe that you will not let me take some of the blame for our troubles. I am not going to put up with that shit any longer.. I was just throwing shit out, whatever came to mind, desperately slinging words, just hoping something would stick. When I realized what I was doing I tried to stop yelling, tears were running down my face by now and I couldn't stop. This verbal assault kept pouring from my lips, when I finally gained control of myself, I stopped yelling and I just froze. I stood there with I can't believe I just said that eyes. I scared myself with all that yelling. I was scared that the things I said would send Michael running, fleeing the craziness of what just happened. I desperately wanted to take every single word back, just take it all back. I was out there now though, on display, doing a really great job of being angry, which is, as you already know, completely out character for me, and, well, I imagine, just looking completely ridiculous.
Michael began to smile, not the kind dismissing smile I've been used to seeing, the hint of a real smile, For the first time in a long time, a genuine smile, and then he started laughing at me. I'm not real sure what happened or how, but soon we were both rolling on the floor and laughing hysterically. After awhile, we just laid there, smiling, not saying anything, just staring toward the ceiling. I didn't know what to do. I don't think Michael knew what to do. Finally, after a small eternity, Michael said, get over here and get your tits out you adorable little slut. He was still smiling but the smile was becoming the familiar one, that kind, distant smile was returning, the dutiful smile, the forced one. That smile was returning to his face. I saw it, sensed it and I knew that answering his assertiveness wasn't the answer. I wasn't ready to give up, to put this past us, to go back. I knew nothing had changed and nothing would be different if we slipped back into the very same.
So I said. No! I am still pissed and you will get up, get naked, bring me a glass of the best wine in our cellar, get on your fucking knees and lick my pussy until I cum. Do you understand me? He looked at me, disbelieving I meant it. Do It Now!, and maybe I will forgive you then. A real and genuine smile returned to his face and then, that first ever Cheshire grin appeared. This was it, this was the answer! I got really into it. I told him to get naked now! Right this second. Do as your told! I stood there arms crossed, feet spread slightly, staring at his pants as they dropped to the floor. Michaels cock was as full and thick and hard as I have ever seen it. I made him stand there while I slowly stripped. I started playing with my breasts while he stood there watching. He reached out for my nipple and I slapped his hand away. Where is my wine! He turned and started walking naked to the wine seller.
When he returned, he found me setting on the couch, wearing one piece of my favorite two piece, peach colored satin nightie loosely covering my hard little nipples, naked from the waist, legs spread wide, my pussy in full view. Well? I said. He showed me an uncorked bottle of chardonnay that we purchased together during a trip to the California vineyards last spring. He filled my favorite long stemmed crystal glass. Next, gracefully and with perfect balance, lowered himself onto his knees in front of my pussy which I had fingered and open for his view and with his normal attention, licked me until I was satisfied. I did not allow him to cum that night. He kept my glass filled, he stayed naked, he fell asleep with his head in my lap. That was the first time I haven't fallen asleep on his.
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