"How do I look?" I asked, again, as I stood in the doorway in my ridiculous shoes.
"You know how you look," Pete said.
"I know." He raises an eyebrow. "I
know
. But tell me again." I'm stalling, working up the nerve to leave the house looking like this. Everything I'm wearing feels too small; every time I move, I'm afraid of spilling out of the top or the bottom. I half expect someone on the street to cover me with a towel and usher me back in. I feel so obvious.
"Please," I say.
He looks me up and down, smiling. "You look like you want to be fucked."
This was not exactly what I needed, and my face must have said so.
"But beautiful! You look beautiful. Of course." He takes a step toward me, pulling my face toward his with one hand, sliding the other between my legs, barely lifting the tiny dress. "But ... you do want to get fucked, don't you?"
He teases me with a finger. He knows how he's left me -- he doesn't have to feel, but I wish he would. "Yes," I breathe.
He stops and backs away. "OK, then."
"I'll call you."
**
I call from the hallway on my way to room 450. When Pete picks up, I can hear the murmur of the bar in the background. "Oh good, you're already there."
"Uh huh. Are you?"
"I'm in the hallway."
"How do you feel?"
"Like I'm glad I have you on the phone."
The sounds of voices comes through. I know where Pete is, a few blocks away, waiting for me to tell him what I do in room 450, waiting to listen, to see if I sound different with someone ... different.
"You can leave if you want, you know," Pete says.
I take a deep breath. "I know."
"But you can't. Not until we tell you to."
**
He nods approvingly from the doorway, making me stand outside. A white-haired couple walks by, whispering.
"This all for me," he says, not really asking.
"Of course."
"I like it," he says, and pulls me inside.
**
"I liked the outfit," he calls toward the phone when I first call Pete. I'm on his lap, straddling him. My dress is pooling over my spread thighs; he's pulled the straps of the tops off my shoulders and pulled one breast out of my bra. He's rolling that nipple back and forth, making me whimper. His boxers are still on, but I can feel him underneath me through my thin panties, and every time he squeezes I grind against him.
I try to say hi, but he pinches my nipple again and I gasp. I hear Pete clear his throat.
"I've got your girl on my lap here, but we're not going to stay like this for long -- she keeps trying to hump me through my shorts," he continues. "She looked great when she showed up. I'm going to try to make sure she looks better when she leaves."
He reaches behind me, grips my hair and pulls my head back, slowly and firmly. I swallow.
"What are you doing," Pete asks me, through the phone, from the bar.
"He's ..." -- having my neck open and exposed, with this merciless grip on my hair and on my nipple with the other hand, is making me writhe. It's already hard to talk. "He's pulling my hair" -- I squeal as he puts my nipple in his mouth and bites it -- "and pulling ... my head back ..." I shift and try to press against more of him, and he pulls my head back further.
"Where are you?"