Layla Jones's Smoking Story -The Serial Escapee.
This was written after talking to hot_procedure_2121.
I will say that this story is dark in places, with mentions of serial drug use. But we need to see it as her true back story, using her words. I did not think it right to hide it. This story covers the history of her relationship with smoking, and how she has now embraced the smoking fetish.
Layla is a bubbly, excitable 36-year-old. With naturally wavy golden hair, depending on the light, creates a hint of blonde intermixed with brown. She is a young at heart mom of one. Her life, focus and world truly now evolve around her small child. She moved state five years ago to escape her boring repetitive days, and weeks at work.
That was her old life. Back then she was still living at home with her parents. Balancing being extremely busy working 9-5, or often even longer, but with that constant feeling of being trapped both at home and being stuck at work in a very boring rut. She just wanted to spread her wings and live with excitement and freedom.
Well, that is what everyone in her family thinks happened. Layla has a much darker backstory. She needed to escape her old life for other bigger personal reasons.
Whilst busy managing her stressful corporate job she had a larger secret. She was paying her way in the world and consuming her cigarettes. But there was one minor problem. She was addicted to both nicotine and cocaine. She had a full blown $100 a day coke habit. She was repetitively bumping white power up her nose. Trying to make what she felt was awful life, feel better. When she was high, she would hide in her car, singing and listening to Never be like you by Flume, on repeat, on full blast, whilst she would chain smoke through two packs of cigarettes a day. It was her coping mechanism. Tears would pour, she wished life was different. Hoping that the coke would make within herself feel amazing. That her problems would no longer exist.
Life was not good. Along with her own demons of her addictions, her mom was working all hours she could in running her own business, her dad was unwell popping so many tablets that they joked that he rattled. This gave her issues at home. She was expected to look after her dad. At such an early age she could not cope, she wanted looking after herself. There was no one around. She just needed to escape.
Layla could not hide the smoking, it was obvious. Every time she stepped out of any building she would soon light up, feeding nicotine into her bloodstream. But she focused on keeping the coke addiction a secret, she did not share it with anyone. It was her own little clandestine problem.
It was then as she turned thirty, at the bottom of the biggest rut that she met her man in a local bar. He was working on a nearby pipeline. He actually now lived across the country. For Layla, high as kite and drunk, he was everything she needed. Her heart was all of a flutter. The ability to escape from the inner demons and external problems. She was doing her best to act normal, as she knew she was a functioning addict. She just needed to get away.
She just had to escape. She moved out of home into his. He was her exciting meal ticket out of the doldrums and to the fresh air and greener grass.
For a time, it was great.
The problem for Layla now is that she feels history has repeated. She again now feels that she is trapped. She is now lives almost cut off from reality in friendless world. All her girlfriends and social life are back in her old state. She has unfortunately failed to make new ones. Layla survives day to day with only the internet as her outwards connection. Without the net, for the last few years most of her conversations would involve talking nonsense with her child. That is her life now, her new and exciting world that she originally envisaged has crumbled to ash in front of her smoke- and tear-filled eyes.
She now looks forwards to the time where she can escape watching endless repeats of children's television. Her moment of pleasure comes when she disappears into the garage. It also comes from her twenty or more Camel Crushes a day. She has not got back to the two packs a day. As she does not have the time.
Layla first started smoking when she was sixteen, it was a perfect time to rebel. She fell in with the wrong crowd at school. But there was no real peer pressure involved for her. It was all down the fact that she had repetitively been told by her parents not to smoke. Her mom had told her repeatedly told her that cigarettes were dangerous and evil. For Layla found the best way that she knew to fulfil her hormonal teen rebellious angst was to fight that. The battle lines were set. She knew very early on that she was going to smoke.
Little did Layla know that she rebelled in exactly the same way that her mom had. Her mom was a wonderful mom but carried a little secret. When she also when out of sight of her husband and children, she enjoyed a cigarette or two.
This all came to a head one afternoon when Layla was sneaking back from a gas station having bunked off school after lunch. She was casually smoking her cigarette that she had just bought without ID. With her pretty eyes and face she had found exceedingly early on that fluttering her long eyelashes and smiling nicely got her everywhere she needed to get.