Author's Note: This is a story about a sensuous, femdom, tease and denial role-play, with a small twist. It starts a little slow, but if you stay with it, you'll get to the hotter parts. It is the first story I have published on Literotica, and I would appreciate any feedback.
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Don't you know me yet? Yes, I am
cruel
- since
you take so much delight in that word- and
am I not entitled to be so?
-Sacher-Masoch,
Venus in Furs
Gwen paused at the doorway, fingering the card key to room 1870. She abruptly turned, and paced back to the elevator, stalling for time. In her somewhat revealing attire, she'd felt self-conscious walking through the marbled lobby of the swanky suburban Hilton. And now she needed a moment to collect her thoughts.
After so many years, this should be easier. But his repeated emails- requesting for her to dominate him- had unnerved her. By nature, she was sweet and giving, loved by many for her warm and empathic personality. She enjoyed pleasing others, and this manifested in broad spheres of her life, including in her work. And she certainly didn't like to act selfishly, or to take advantage of others. It left a guilty pit in her stomach.
But regardless of her inclinations, his emails had explicitly asked for something quite the opposite. If he said it once, he said it a dozen times- he was seeking a tease and denial role-play in which he would be kept intensely aroused, while being heedlessly used to give her physical pleasure. He made it apparent that this was something he'd wanted for a very long time.
In a way, his messages had initially come off as a bit demanding, entitled even. Like a spoiled child, used to being pampered by his mother. And what's more, her lack of experience with D/s had left her feeling a bit stupid, and a lot inadequate. She wouldn't have tolerated it, if he had become at all critical of her or hinted that she "wasn't doing it right." She hated that, and would have ended it right there.
But, to the contrary, he'd turned out to be surprisingly pleasant to work with, and their email exchanges gradually had become more warm and playful. He had offered her quite a bit for the day, and explicitly gave her the freedom and safety to do things her way. And when she'd specified her boundaries and requirements, he was more than happy to abide by them, including for him to obtain all of the items she'd requested.
So, back and forth, across several conspiring emails, they'd negotiated over almost 2 weeks, agreeing first upon a basic understanding, and then a general script. Some aspects of the scene were clearly outlined, for example the manner in which they would greet each other, and some of their early interactions, "to help set a teasing tone." Cell phones would be off, to avoid any interruptions. And he'd even relayed an array of "helpful links," to give her a flavor of his predilections; it was a virtual mini D/s 101: "from Masoch to Misato." She giggled at the
intensity
of his desires.
But somehow, the way he knew just what he wanted, was intriguing. It had made her ponder her own life. What had
she
been wanting for a long time? Certainly, her desires were less sexually-focused. Sure, she absolutely adored a good body massage. But assertively taking sexual pleasure for herself? That was often uncomfortable, even embarrassing. In fact, despite her significant experience, she still vastly preferred to be in the pleasing role, and to leave her own desire dammed up.
Besides, life was so busy- there was never really enough time for herself. She was eternally occupied, handling all the day-to-day details of work and home. It left her frequently exhausted and anticipating blame if things didn't go right. How nice it would be to escape those feelings.Β Laughing under breath, Gwen thought perhaps she should email someone and request a role-play that they assume all her noxious daily tasks for her! Now,
that
would be a fantasy.
So, after considerable persistence on his part, she'd relented. And once she agreed, she never liked to back out. She'd followed his links, done her research, planned a few hot moves, and even practiced some teasing talk in front of the mirror. So now, on a temperate Tuesday afternoon in May, Gwen felt as ready as she'd ever be for their role-play session.
She felt certain of his basic desires, and that she could muster enough moxie to play the tease. But she didn't want to disappoint, and was a bit less sure about how they'd both respond to her taking control. Standing in the hallway, questions ran through her mind. Did he really want for her to be so cruel? Could she elicit the sort of submissive manner he wanted? And if so, could she be comfortable staying in a dominant role, and focus on her own satisfaction- stifle her guilt and the inevitable impulse to relent and please him?
Finally, she resolved herself. "I've prepared for this and I'm ready. So c'mon," she thought. "Besides, I'm allowed to wallow in a little unadulterated pleasure as much as the next girl, right? Why can't I be 'Goddess for a Day'?" She chuckled to herself, checked her makeup in a hallway mirror, and hummed Bananarama under her breath, as she walked more confidently back to the room.
Sliding the card into the door, she also reminded herself of the considerable fee that she had incrementally extracted from him in their negotiations. Now
that
brought a smile to her face. The door clicked green, and she strode into the room.
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Levi's anticipation was peaking, and he was almost quivering with excitement. After years of yearning, months of scheming, and finally, a couple weeks of carefully planned contacts, the day was finally here. He wanted to present as a cool customer, used to this sort of meeting. But he was way too jacked up for that. He sniggered at his pitiful efforts to gather a degree of restraint; he had managed to arrive
only
two hours early for their arranged session.
Earlier, walking to the room, his hands had shaken slightly, unsteadied by the weight of his carefully packed day bag. Everything made him self-conscious, especially the young blond woman behind the check-in counter. He had mumbled a request for a second room card and an envelope, and then left it for
her
at the desk- "for Miss Gwen" scribbled in shaky capitals.