Some background: I'd never done anything like this before. I've been into piss desperation and wetting for a long, long time but never engaged in it much IRL. Sometimes I'll wait until I have to piss before I masturbate because I like how it feels to hold it while pleasuring myself. That's about the most I ever do with the kink myself, it feels so good to tell my body
No
. But I've never actually pissed myself or anything like that, I would always make it to the bathroom after everything.
I've also never really talked about my omorashi kink in detail before. It's not that I'm
ashamed
of it, there's nothing wrong with kinky stuff as long as everyone involved gives consent. But come on, it's piss... That's a hard limit for a whole lot of people. So I keep it to myself and just quietly indulge myself; I do read/watch piss desperation content very often while getting off.
My love of omorashi is, at its base level, the same thing that drives most of my kinks: Control. And
losing
that control. Fighting your body, begging your muscles to keep clenching and holding on longer, using every ounce of strength to stop the inevitable flood. When your body finally wins--and it
always
wins--the wave of pleasure crashing over your entire body is euphoric. Whether you've made it to a toilet or make a mess of yourself, finally letting go is almost orgasmic.
But anyways. Onto Friday night! This whole session lasted a few hours from start to finish.
I've been ravenous lately and so easily aroused. It feels as if I've been like this forever, but it hasn't even been two weeks yet. I've been masturbating daily; sometimes just teasing and edging, sometimes cumming multiple times a day.
The other night I was in bed for a few hours just being horny... not touching myself at all, but watching videos, reading stories, scrolling Reddit, sexting a certain chatting partner. I would roll my hips a bit or grind on the bed a little every now and then.
I started needing to piss at one point during that prolonged teasing. I didn't want to stop and inevitably end up cooling off, so I figured I would just hold it like usual. It wasn't an urgent need yet, so it easily faded into the back of my mind and out of awareness.