Abstract:
Although some may find it unorthodox, the author decided that the format of a scientific journal would be the most rigourous and fair way to enact a methodology to prove a personal hypothesis, that her sexual development lagged far behind her educational and career progression. The investigation follows two strands of experimentation:
1) To establish in which ways the author has a psychological disadvantage when it comes to issues of sexuality.
2) To trial and measure the efficacy of different experiences in the reversal of the authors deficiencies of sexuality.
Author:
Dr. Felicity Klahan-Citron PHD. Senior research assistant in the Microsystems Technology Office (MTO) at the Defence Advanced Research Projects Agency (DARPA)
Embargo:
That this journal is being kept on a laptop totally isolated from any network connections should be an indication of the obvious, that this work should be considered indefinitely embargoed and not to be released for publication.
Introduction:
This study is already unique among psychological studies for the following reasons.
The sample size is a single individual.
The author and subject of the experiment are one and the same.
The author has no formal training in psychology.
The author will not be citing academic journals as they have no desire to become an expert on psychology just to prove a single self-contained hypothesis.
Usually each experiment (methodology followed by data and conclusion) forms their own paper. For simplicity the author will have multiple experiments following on from one another within this single paper.
Usually individual case notes are quoted in full in the appendix while the author's interpretation is included in the body text of the journal. In some parts these are one and the same, as such the author at their discretion has opted for directly transcribing audio recordings of her experiences.
The subject is, at least in the author's opinion, exceptionally intelligent. In scientific studies, she has been at the top of every class she has participated in since the beginning of her memory. After becoming the youngest ever winner of the American National Science Fair aged 14, she was offered a full scholarship to Harvard to major in Computer Science with a minor in Quantum Physics. She graduated Suma Kum Laude, completed a postdoctoral thesis on emerging threats to cybersecurity that was widely published and noticed by the hiring team at DARPA who gave her the job she has now had for 4 years.
The physical attributes of our subject are as follows-
Age: 29
Height: 155cm
Weight: 54.5kg
Ethnicity: mixed white European and Thai.
Hair colour: black
Eye colour: green
Bra size: 32/A
Distinguishing features: always wears large framed glasses; moles located on left hip, upper right torso, and two just to the left of belly button; often described as a "little sister type" which subject interprets as small and lacking any sexual allure.
Subject volunteered for experimentation after a distressing sexual encounter, she had seduced a man and taken him back to his house for sex. This in itself was a more unique occurrence than ideal so the subject was excited. As she began to engage in sexual activity, the man in question decided to play pornographic movies on his TV. The man reassured the subject that this is a regular occurrence among sexual partners (subsequent research confirms it is a known phenomenon) but at the time, subject considered it unusual enough that she became uncomfortable and terminated the sexual interaction. This the need for further investigation into sexual desires.
1st experiment:
Methodology:
The author downloaded a list of Paraphilias, removed results either illegal or focussed on activities unable to be performed on/by female subjects, and began matching them up to the highest rated pornographic videos in those sections to create a playlist of different fetishes. Subject's pupil dilation, perspiration rates and heart rate will be measured throughout each video. There will be control videos for neutral (videos of lawns being mowed), excitement (a fight scene from subject's favourite action movie) and disgust (surgery to remove a parasite inside a human eye) to calibrate measurements, however the neutral videos will also be shown between each pornographic video to prevent latent feelings about one fetish contaminating data from other fetishes. Subject was hesitantly excited about a 5 hour session watching various pornographic movies.
Data:
Full data to be published in the appendix but the summary is as follows:
Subject's data matched neutrality for fetishes that focussed on non-sexual body parts (such as feet or armpits), male and female homosexuality, and different categorisations of male sexual partners.
Subject's data matched disgust for excretions, fetishes surrounding the making of the subject dirty, direct physical harm to subject, and fetishes associated with family members.
