I was driving home after a long day at work, when I realized that my church was in the neighborhood. I decided to stop by and go to confession.
The Deacon informed me that his Priest was not present & that he would be willing to hear my confession- if I so desired. I immediately got embarrassed & nervously declined.
He had explained to me that they've been working together for almost 40yrs & that my situation is extremely private & confidential. He seemed experienced & sincere, so I agreed.
He led me through the greeting room & into the Priests' office. Everything still looked the same and that really helped to calm my nerves.
He grabbed the little chair & placed it alot closer towards the desk than it usually is. Then he walked around & took a seat behind the desk, as I took a seat on my stool.
We talked for quite a while & I felt very comfortable. He was very perceptive and very attentive. This also helped me to relax.
He explained to me that:
"As we (human beings) age, we sometimes feel insecure. Possibly we feel less than- or inadequate. To understand our feelings properly- we must always try to have an open mind & try to maintain a level head".
This made perfect sense to me. I'm getting up there in age, so having some kind of mid-life crises is typically the fear of most people my age.
I could tell that he was analyzing me, because the room got very quiet & he seemed to be watching me think about things. He asked me if I was thirsty & my face lit up, so he excused himself.
