With as much courage as it took, I'm eternally glad I followed up my night of mortification at Elaine's with a phone call of apology.
In plucking up the nerve to ring her and make good, I decided just to be honest from the start and as much as I felt contrite, I secretly might have wanted to know how she really felt about the whole thing.
(I want to also make clear that this wasn't my first dirty pantie experience, but certainly the first time I had been caught).
In my favor, as I saw it, was the overall feeling that Elaine was quite a sexual woman to begin with and as things worked out, it was a good assessment.
Immediately on making the phone call, I knew it was the right thing to do.
Elaine was not angry with me at all once we actually got to talking about it.
I was glad.
"No, I've thought about it and I figure it's maybe not so unusual. I just probably never expected for something like it to happen to me, that's all. Not even my ex-husband was that way inclined.So have you enjoyed them after all that??" Elaine asked.
"Of course!" was my careful reply.
"Oh really??? She feigned surprise. "Well I guess if that's what turns you on...."
A 15-minute conversation took place, after which I had offered (and been accepted) to cook Elaine dinner to make up for my previous wrongdoing.
The night was a Friday and my sincerest hope was that she had had a busy day at the office and the inside of her underwear may be reflecting this.
Firstly though, as an honorable gesture, I had decided to wash the previous "gift" and return the 3 pairs of her white knickers from my last visit.
As much as I would love to have kept them forever, the strength of smell (particularly the "fishy" part of the odor) had begun to fade after a week, even though they were still quite well stained.
This generally brown staining was from what I could only imagine as a combination of sweat, pee and natural daily discharge. Its location on the gusset suggested it definitely was not poo.
Anyway, the gesture of returning all 3 pairs clean and washed was certainly one of goodwill as I saw it.
Elaine chuckled as I returned her knickers, all neat, clean and folded.
"Nice!!" she chortled.
"They're all clean, I can guarantee it," I responded with humility.
"It's OK, I trust you!" Elaine was satisfied.
With that, a very pleasant evening followed.
Dinner was great and of course, I held out quietly confident hopes of what may be for dessert.
At a certain point of the evening, Elaine excused herself to use the bathroom, probably for about the 3rd time during the evening.
I heard the toilet flush and Elaine reappeared shortly after.
Even though she had only been gone a couple of minutes, I had enjoyed some wickedly dirty thoughts in her absence.
The thought of her slipping down her undies, sitting on the toilet and relieving herself conjured some wonderful images in my mind.
It occurred to me at that point to jump in and use the toilet directly after Elaine had just sat on it could be something very pleasant.
So this is what I did.
"I think I need to go as well...." I decided.
Once in the bathroom I did a quick scan for anything inviting that may have been left "lying about".
Nothing obvious, but as I stood there and peed I imagined what had gone on just a few minutes before.
Elaine sitting there on the toilet, bare-bottomed, pubic hair exposed and releasing a bladder full of urine from between her legs and into the bowl below.
I had a hard time urinating myself as I felt my appendage begin to swell in my hand at the thought.
It was going to be difficult to act then and there with Elaine out in the next room, but I least made sure I slowly rubbed my hand over her white toilet seat before leaving.
Re-joining Elaine, the conversation continued but not after something of a knowing pause.
I was sure Elaine knew why I had I decided to use the bathroom straight after her and I probably did not mind her thinking that.
"You know," she continued, "you did not have to do what you did."