I stood outside Salima's apartment feeling more rage flood my bloodstream than I ever thought possible, and I mean that. It's not a joke, a euphemism, or an exaggeration but the literal truth. In that moment I was angrier than I'd ever been in my entire life and this bitch needed to know why. She'd humiliated me in that restaurant. In fact the word humiliation just doesn't do justice to what that bitch did because the English language currently has no word to describe the level of public embarrassment and shame she caused me. She knew exactly what the fuck she was doing when she took me into that toilet and she clear as day was the sole reason for Greg Samuels walking in on me after I came all over myself.
I got up and ran out of the restaurant when I he saw me and drove home immediately. Once I got back I phoned work citing personal problems as my reason for having left the Manchester conference early and spent the next 4 days sitting in my apartment shitting my pants. By the weekend I still hadn't heard a peep from anyone at work about what happened. Hopefully that meant Greg hadn't told anyone what he saw and hopefully it meant he'd keep his mouth shut. I hadn't yet been disciplined so maybe that meant I was in the clear? he was a strict Christian so maybe he was so embarrassed by the whole incident that he just decided to keep it all to himself? Either way I was completely in the dark and irrespective of whether or not I was going to keep my job I was livid.
I beat my fist hard against the door of Salima's apartment more times than I could count, feeling raw skin and flesh pound painfully against hard oak and completely ignoring the sensation. I then waited in silence for exactly 3.5 seconds, heard zero response and pounded again until my right hand felt more like a spasming ball of pulsating electrical pain than a human limb.
'Salima! Saliiiimaaaa! Hurry the fuck up and get down here now!'
I heard her faint voice coming from deep in the apartment.
'Hold on, hold on I'm coming.'
'Get the fuck down here now, Salima!'
'I'm coming I'm coming.'
I carried on slamming the door regardless, was in mid strike when she opened it and almost took her face off with my fist. There she stood with her beautiful caramel skin, long luscious black hair, slim body and pert breasts encased in a tight fitting white blouse and legs that were toned yet incredibly sensual and feminine encased in a pencil skirt and semi opaque black stockings. It was always the same with this bitch. Always the smart and slightly formal sexy business look. Always doing her best to fuck with people's heads. Always trying to spur your mind to conjure up images of what you knew what she had to flaunt without her actually showing you a damn thing. Always being the sort of bitch who uses what she had to get what she wanted. But did she really think that was going to work with me anymore? The expensive perfume, the slightly unbuttoned shirt, the way she stood there 'absent-mindedly' dipping in and out of her designer heels at the doorstep; did she really think I was going to fall for that now?!
Before she could even finish saying hello I pushed right past her, marched right into her living room and took a seat without waiting for one to be offered.
'Sit.' I said, looking at her with pure, cold hateful venom in my eyes and the very same oozing from my voice.
She walked to the other side of the room, sat down on a couch opposite me, crossed her sexy legs and started dangling her right heel off the very tip toe of her nylon stockinged foot. She let it swing and sway from side to side in a rhythmical and almost hypnotic manner and never once dropped it. Quite amazing when you consider that she was basically balancing it on a single toenail.
'Give shit that a rest.'
'Give what a rest?'
'You know what the fuck I'm talking about. Quit the dangling bullshit.'
'I'm not doing it for your benefit, my feet are sweaty and I want to air them out.'
'I DON'T GIVE A FUCK HOW UNCOMFORTABLE YOUR FEET ARE, KEEP YOUR FUCKING SHOES ON AND LISTEN TO WHAT THE FUCK I'VE GOT TO SAY!' I shouted.
The bitch wouldn't stop playing games no matter what the situation was. She knew exactly what she was doing when she dangled her shoe like that in front of me. She knew what that would do to me. It wasn't subconscious and it certainly wasn't for her own benefit. If she really wanted to air her feet out she would have taken her shoes off well before I arrived but instead she kept them on and deliberately gave me that 'accidental display'.
But what hurt me most was the fact that I couldn't help but enjoy watching her dangle her shoe. That her deliberately accidental display had affected me. That the sight of her sexy little foot toying with her cute little heel as she sat there looking so beautiful, elegant and Goddamn sexy with one leg casually draped over the other made my dick start to swell. I hated that. I hated the feeling of being attracted to her. I hated the fact that no matter what my mind wanted to think about her, there was a deeper part of me that was completely intoxicated by her attitude and demeanour. I hated all of that but I wasn't going to give her the satisfaction of knowing that she could move me like that. Not anymore.
She kept her leg crossed but put her shoe back on properly. My dick may not have liked that but my ego definitely did. Score one for me.
'This needs to stop.' I said.
'What needs to stop?'
'This.'
'What's this?'