If I thought it was difficult to get Rick off my mind before, after my last coffee and talk in the car with him, it was impossible. I was totally distracted, both at home and at work, thinking about what Rick had told me and thinking about that photo, now deleted, he had texted to me. I kept reconstructing the image in my mind. Rachel noticed my general distraction and preoccupation, but I made the excuse of having a lot of work that I was falling behind on. That was actually true, but I was falling behind at work because I couldn't get my mind off of Rick.
I kept thinking about how he had told me he was going to "train" me and give me assignments, but he didn't give any specifics. I was also obsessed with trying to imagine what the punishments he mentioned were all about. He had said both physical and emotional punishment. I got excited and nervous wondering what that might mean. I also knew that he totally overmatched me physically, and there was a fear factor that if I didn't do what he said, he could certainly hurt me very badly, if he chose to. The fear itself was exciting, and I wondered what, if anything, he would do to me if I decided to back out now.
I realized I didn't really know him all that well. I had no idea what kind of risks I had left myself open to if I somehow managed to really piss him off. All these thoughts kept going through my mind, right along with the thoughts that turned me on so much, imagining him with Rachel. Fuck, what had I gotten myself into!
Apart from my general distraction during the day, Rachel was a major beneficiary of these thoughts of Rick going around in my mind. We had sex every night from Wednesday through Saturday, and we even had Sunday morning sex. She remarked several times how much she loved it, and that she was so happy we could keep the sexual spark going after all these years. On one level, it sort of made me regret getting into this situation with Rick. After all, it was all psychological. It was me in bed with Rachel, pleasing her sexually like never before. I obviously had it in me all along. Why did I need Rick?
But I still couldn't get my mind off of him. Ugh.
Sunday afternoon rolled around. I was doing some organizing in the garage when I got a text. My heart jumped when I saw that it was Rick.
Rick: "sup"
Me: "hey, how's it going?"
Rick: "I'm good. How's my woman?"
Me: "She's good."
Rick: "You taking care of her needs?"
Me: "Yes."
Rick: "How many times you fucked?"
Me: "Every night since Wednesday."
Rick: "No sex tonight. Tell her you're really tired and have to get up early for work in the morning."
Me: "OK"
Rick: "Not fucking OK, bitch. You say yes Rick or yes sir, I won't have sex with Rachel.' Try again."
Me: "Yes Rick, I won't have sex tonight with Rachel like you said. I'm sorry."
Rick: "That's better. You are not allowed to jack off either. See you tomorrow. Delete these texts."
Me: "Yes, I understand."
I waited a little while to see if he texted again, but he didn't. I deleted the texts like he told me to. I definitely didn't want to have to explain that if Rachel happened to see them. I got back to my garage organization project and tried to take my mind off Rick and get rid of the erection I had just gotten from that text exchange.
Later that night, after dinner, I mentioned to Rachel, "how about we relax in bed tonight with a cup of tea and watch a movie for a change?"
"That sounds nice, sweetie," she said. And that's exactly what we did. After the movie, we kissed goodnight, and she seemed to fall right asleep. I, of course, laid awake for quite a while thinking about the situation I had gotten myself into.
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Monday rolled around and I had to really focus on work to keep my mind off of Rick. After work, I grabbed a quick snack and got ready to go to the gym. I dropped Max off at soccer practice and arrived at the gym just after 6:00 (I had told Rick 6:10). Looking around for Rick as I walked in, I headed for the locker room to stow my gym bag and stuff before heading back out to do my usual stationary bike and rowing machine workout. As I entered the locker room, I heard Rick's voice, "there he is!" He was standing at the sinks and had seen me in the mirror. He wasn't wearing a shirt, and simply had some athletic shorts, socks and shoes on. A t-shirt was wadded up, sitting on the counter in front of him. He smiled at me in the mirror and proceeded to flex his biceps. Damn, he was fit. "Like what you see?" he said, catching me staring.