Victim of Changes...
(Author's note: this chapter does contain GAY SEX! Ooooo! Run away!!! lol)
Leaving the beach we could see the Sun beginning to fade, it had been a full day of travel and to be honest, it felt so long now since we had left home, it was as if we were in another world... In another time zone or dimension even...
As Lord Sterling and I left the warm water arm in arm this time, I was faced with a sense, or dose of reality in knowing that I would have to tell Veronica and Brother Reg I was leaving them, wanting to take up Lord Sterling's offer of staying with him in the big house as he had requested.
I just didn't want to hurt her like Matt her ex-boyfriend had when he dumper her for a guy... It was uncanny really, the similarities were so close with her even comparing me to him at one point, it made me feel all that much worse and like I was doing it to her once again, dumping her for a man...
But as well, I knew things were different now and Veronica would be over the Moon happy for me, because we both wanted this in a way.
Yet still... Having to walk up there and tell her, it did come with a certain amount of embarrassment and shame that I knew would haunt me, where as odd as it seemed? It felt like I was the one who was about to break up with Veronica, and not the other way around as I'd always imagined, where if anyone was going end things, it would be her...
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"Well look at the two of you, getting along like love birds I see?" She smiled sitting up from her reclined position, laying on her back tanning her naked body in the late afternoon Sun as we strolled up the sandy beach from the water, and I supposed she was right, seeing us arm in arm, naked and looking indeed like we were already lovers...
"Yes, you may be correct there my beautiful friend" Lord Sterling relied... "You see, I hope you don't mind darling, but I've managed to convince young Dana-boy here to come and stay with me in the main house... I told him how important it was for the two of you to be alone at a time like this, with you wanting to conceive Brother Reg's child of course" He answered, breaking the news for me, and quite thankfully I might add.
Wanting to stay with him, and umm, immerse myself completely into his idea of what a gay-lifestyle may include.... I was also glad that he said it to her the way he had, saying it like he was doing Veronica and Brother Reg a favour by taking me off of their hands, or getting me out of their hair while they try to conceive a child together.
I thought he was being kind in his discretion, not mentioning any of what he had told me out in the water... Saying he wanted me as his openly gay, male submissive where I was permitted to wear make-up, but from here on in? It didn't appear that I would be wearing any of the female clothing I had with me in my small suitcase.
Or, I didn't believe as much from how he was also saying I would be dressed in the clothes he would provide...and God only knows what they would look like!
"Oh Wow! Really?" Veronica chirped happily... "No I don't mind at all" she replied, agreeing as I expected she would, beaming with a huge, big smile from behind her big Jackie-O sunglasses, saying that she had no problem with me going off to 'find myself' as I'm sure she was probably thinking.
But also, I suppose if anything, I was just glad it was Lord Sterling doing the talking with me feeling so bashful in admitting I wanted to go and stay with him. Because as far as I was concerned? It would have looked and sounded like I was 'coming-out' completely, which from how Lord Sterling had been talking... I thought it probably wouldn't be long before he had me making that declaration, cementing things, and me... Making me come out and say it, making me tell them, admitting once and for all that I was gay...
"I'm so happy for you Dana! Brother Reg went to find some fishing gear, I'll tell him when he comes back, but I know he'll be happy for you too... Here baby, let me get you bag for you, it's still on your bed unopened" Veronica replied as she stood hugging me with her wonderful naked body touching mine, which of course triggered another rush of this as being a very surreal moment.
With her arm around my shoulder and ushering me into my smaller cabin while offering to help me collect my bag, I also had a feeling that she wanted a word alone with me...
"Oh my God Dana! This is so fucking hot don't you think? And did you see the size of his cock? I'm actually jealous!" She said to me looking and sounding rather astounded but turned on for me none the less... And here I was thinking she wanted a solemn moment with me, maybe wanting to say something sweet and touching as we were about to part ways...
"I... I can't believe this is happening" I replied feeling my statement was true because in a lot of ways, I couldn't... This whole thing, it just didn't seem real...
What did he say to you out there? I mean... If he's asked you to stay with him, are you okay with 'that' happening...with him?" Veronica asked as I looked at her, thinking it an odd thing to say. But now that it was happening, I did want her to know what Lord Sterling had in mind for me so I didn't hesitate in telling her everything he had said while we were standing up to our waistlines in the warm Caribbean sea...
"He, um... He said he wants... Or, he told me that I'm going to be his submissive when we are together" I began as Veronica looked to me with her eyes growing a little wider and her smile doing the same...
"He also said he wants me to not be so girly... He said he wants to be with a gay-man who is out and proud, but not a man pretending to be a woman" I went on, telling her more of Lord Sterling's wants while feeling a little bashful again, afraid to admit that I also wanted what he was offering...
"Oh Wow! Did you tell him about your hormone therapy? And how it's not safe to stop right away? You know, going cold turkey?" She asked but Lord Sterling had already thought of this, once more telling me what I needed to do...
