Believe it or not, this is actually breezing through details for me. If you want to hear about anything more specifically, let me know. I will be writing about our adventures over the last 8-9 years in this lifestyle but this is the end of the beginning.
After my wife had hugged me she said her back was hurting after being bent over the table.
"My bad," Jason said, "I got a little carried away."
She arched her back and said, "Worth it."
I told her after I cleaned up the kitchen I'd massage her. She told me to forget the dishes and to come to the couch.
She got on it face down. Now I actually took her heels off and started massaging her. Jason put his boxers on and sat down in the adjacent chair.
"Let me know if you want me to leave. It won't hurt my feelings.*
"Nah you're good. We don't have to just fuck," my wife replied.
She continued, "Hey babe, why don't you tell him about the stuff we were looking at last night."
I was a little stunned. The thought of him knowing all of that sounded hot to me but I was beyond embarrassed to say any of it.
"Uhh... I can send you stuff on it if you want to read about it. I don't think I can actually talk about it with anyone else."
He looked at me with a squint, "What is IT, exactly?"
My wife was smiling and said, "Cuckolding."
He said, "Ah. I've heard a little about it."
"So had I," she said quickly, "but you gotta check out what these people are into."
She told me to pull up some of the articles and send them to him. I sent him the three I still had open. One which laid out the role of the cuckold, the "hotwife", and "the bull," one that got into specifics of humiliation desires for the cuckold, and the last which was an overview of challenges and just general advice.
I kept massaging and he started reading.
"Ho-ly shit," he said, almost in disbelief.
My wife laughed, "I know!!"
"A cuckold should prepare the scene for his goddess and their bull..." he trailed off, "looks like you're already doing this stuff."
I couldn't bring myself to look at him but just nodded and kept massaging Ashley's back.
"This humiliation shit is intense," he looked at me again, "what exactly do you get out of this?"
I felt paralyzed. Talking to another man, an Alpha, about being a beta bitch was not easy.
"I guess I'm just wired differently..."
"I'll say..." and he continued reading.
"We've ripped off a lot of bandaids this week," my wife turned and looked at me in the face, "do you want to rip off a few more?"
I felt like I was about to throw up.
I leaned into her and said, "I can't say it. I can't lead this."
She sat up and was whispering to me but Jason took the hint that we needed to talk and excused himself for a minute.
She asked, "What do you want? Do you want to be done for the day?"
I couldn't even look her in the eye.
"No, no I don't."
She pulled my chin up and looked me in the eye. "This is your time. Our time. We have the perfect guy for this but we can slow down."
"I don't want to slow down."
"Then tell me what you want."
"... Baby, I need you to tell me what I want. I want you to be a complete bitch to me. I want to feel broken."
She smiled and sat up more.
"That's doable." I was on my knees in front of the couch and she was sitting at the edge of the couch with my head in her chest now, cradling me.
Jason walked back in gingerly, "All good?"
"Oh yes," she answered. "Very good."
While she still held my head she looked at him over my shoulder.
"You've enjoyed fucking me, it seems?"
"uhhh yeah you can say that," he said when he laughed.
She gripped my hair a little tighter on the back and said, "Let's explore some things for James, now. Or do you want to leave?"
He didn't hesitate, "I'd love to stay."
She pulled my hair back and looked at me in the eyes very closely.