The drive to Kevin's was taking forever today. It being Friday and the final day of school for hundreds of high-school students meant the roads were as congested as they were likely to get at any point. Aside from that, Amber was feeling the effects of being without a shot for nearly 8 hours now. A slow building nauseousness was welling up inside her and she feared what real withdrawal would feel like. That hadn't been something Amber had considered much up to this point, as the whirlwind of substances had kept her mind spinning in other ways. Now, thinking about the horrors of not having them and feeling the physical and mental ramifications of withdrawal sent a small ripple of terror through her. Matt must have noticed her deep thoughts because he was glancing at her worryingly as he drove.
"Babe.. are you ok?" He asked concerned.
Amber thought about which words were correct, as she did not want to shake his confidence that this was truly what she wanted. And she did. It had been an amazing and exhilarating journey that awoke real deep and dark secrets that she had never known or understood about herself. But there were also things she worried about; For one, she feared that she would go too far. Turn into a complete junkie with all the health issues and financial and emotional dependance that came along with it and Matt would grow out of his obsession or simply get sick of having to deal with and take care of her. The other main one was related, and was the idea that if something were to happen that meant she was completely addicted but unable to sustain her habit financially how fast it would go from being fun to torture.
Getting high felt wonderful and indulging the pleasure-seeking hedonist that was hidden inside of her had become an equally enrapturing obsession to Matt's own, but that would fade quickly if she were unable to sustain it. Finally, she feared that she had already become too in love with this life to stop, even if one of the previous two scenarios were to become true. Every time she thought about getting high and corrupting her healthy young body it filled her with joy and lust. The destruction aspect especially was alluring to her, and the idea that eventually it would become obvious to anyone that looked at her that she was utterly 'ruined' turned her on in the most obscene way. So yes.. Amber had fears but more than anything it was background noise. And this fucking car ride was taking too long.
"Yea babe, I'm fine. I just want to hurry up and get there. I wanna get high," Amber replied finally. Her thoughts completing their cycle.
It had only been a few minutes but Amber already felt the familiar emptiness that pulled at her to light up another cigarette. She reached down into her pack that lie in her purse and extracted one, placing it between her lips. It had become a feeling that was almost as familiar as blinking, and Amber knew that no matter what happened, she would die a heavy smoker.
At first the smell was off-putting, and the taste incredibly unnatural and foreign. The taste would linger on her tongue noticeably for hours after each time she smoked, and it caused her to swallow constantly trying to 'cleanse' her pallet. Now though, it was delicious. The soft warmth of the smoke was all she noticed. Not the smell or the taste. And the joy of feeling that slightly heavy warmth being sucked into her lungs. As soon as she exhaled she longed for another lung-filling drag. Amber peered over at Matt who was doing his best to watch the road while also trying to catch every time she took a drag and exhaled a thick stream of smoke into the car around them. The power to so visibly turn him on anytime she wanted was also part of the thrill.
"Now that school's out I can smoke a lot more. Probably at least a pack and a half, maybe two," tempted Amber.
Who knew that her actions combined with those words were likely to cause Matt's cock to bust out of his jeans.
"Really? Damn, guess I gotta make sure I can afford all those cigarettes," replied Matt with mock concern.
Amber knew that Matt would work as much as he needed to in order to make sure she had all the cigs, booze and drugs she needed. Hopefully her habit and appetite wouldn't exceed his earning potential, but she had her doubts. In that case, Amber was more than ok with starting her own career. As insane as it would sound to herself just a couple months ago, Amber actually wanted to do escorting work. Despite having the grades to attend a good college, that life no longer appealed to her. She longed to be a piece of meat, a hole for depraved men to stick their cocks in. Thinking about being 'used' like that turned her on. A lot.