Day Forty
Rose was right: in the cold light of morning I was not so fatalistic. The effects of the cream had worn off, and I yelped when I tried to pull up my clean knickers, but Rose refused to rub on a second application.
"They might notice when they inspect you," she said: "besides, it's only a small tube, and you're going to need it tomorrow."
"Don't remind me Rose."
I squatted over the bucket, wincing again. I remembered what Prana had told me of the time she had been hit with the crop: how she couldn't sleep or use the bucket properly.
I dragged myself into the corridor, and was immediately bombarded with questions. What had happened yesterday? Was it true I had tried to attack Dawes? Some of the women were even applauding me, treating me like a heroine, for something I had not done. All I wanted was news of Prana, but none was forthcoming. I was glad when I was back in my cell.
"Have you actually seen your bottom?" Rose asked, when I peeled my knickers off again.
"I'm not sure I want to," I said: but Rose had taken the tarnished mirror down from the shelf, and was holding it to my behind. I couldn't resist turning my head to look.
"Oh God," I said. What I saw was a long weal: the red skin was raised and puckered as though a tiny mole had burrowed under it, across the width of my buttocks.
"Nasty, isn't it?" said Rose. "I'll put some more cream on when they've inspected us."
She replaced the mirror, and I ran my fingers gingerly over the weal.
"I need to wash my legs," I said, soaking my flannel under the tap. "I wet myself yesterday: we both did."
"I could tell," said Rose. "I wiped you down yesterday as best I could when I shaved you."
"So you did shave me," I said. "I thought I was dreaming. Thank you."
I wiped myself down again, not forgetting my feet and ankles: though pain shot through my bottom when I tried to bend down. I had just finished when the door clanged open, and in came Clark and Bradley with breakfast.
"Well, well," said Clark, eyeing my bottom: "Officer Dawes has done a good job there. Hurt, does it?"
"Yes Sir," I said.
"Ain't nothing to how it's gonna hurt tomorrow," said Bradley.
"What's going to happen tomorrow?" asked Rose, sharply. Clark turned on her:
"Your little cellmate's going to get what's coming to her for assaulting a Prison Warden," said Clark.
"She didn't assault anybody," said Rose: "she was trying to stop Kumali."
"You'd better watch what you're saying," said Clark. "Or you might just get a couple of stripes of your own."
Rose gave Clark a hostile look, but said no more. Clark turned to me again:
"Message from Officer Dawes," she said: "You can expect twelve more like that at Exercise tomorrow."
"Twelve?" I said in horror.
"A nice round dozen," grinned Bradley. "And the same for your little friend."
"In front of the whole prison," said Clark.
"Enjoy your porridge Goldilocks," said Bradley, as they left.
My appetite, which had been growing, had deserted me.
"Twelve," I said to Rose, as though I couldn't believe it. "Rose, how am I going to bear it? How's Prana going to bear it?"
"Never mind her," said Rose impatiently. "She should have had more sense than try to throw her nappy at Dawes: it's you I'm worried about. We can't let this happen Chloe."
"We can't stop it Rose," I said.
"Just shut up and eat your porridge Chloe and let me think."
I forced the porridge down me, feeling sick with apprehension. Prana had been given three once, and had suffered unimaginable pain. Never again, she had said. And now it was to be twelve. In front of the whole prison. I thought back to Cradock, tied to Vaulting Horse: they had only used the strap on her, yet her bottom at the end had been red and raw. I remembered her howls. I remembered the reactions of the other prisoners, sympathy giving way to annoyance, as their precious hour of Exercise was denied them. Was that how Prana and I would be viewed?
The door opened again: it was Raymond and Mrs Tiggywinkle, come to inspect our shaves.
"How are your legs today Littlehayes?" asked Raymond, giving my pussy such a cursory glance I realised it would not have mattered for once if I had not been shaved.
"A bit better thank you Sir," I said.
"That is good," said Raymond. "And your bottom: it still hurt?"
"Yes," I said. "Though not quite as much, Sir."
The two Wardens made to leave; but before Raymond could follow Mrs Tiggywinkle out Rose said:
"Officer Raymond: may I speak to you please?"
"Of course Mason."
"May I speak in private please?"
Raymond gestured to Mrs Tiggywinkle, who left the cell and closed the door behind her.
"Raymond," said Rose urgently: "about yesterday: Chloe didn't attack Dawes: she was trying to stop Kumali."
"Leave it Rose," I said wearily.
"No," said Rose. "She's going to be flogged tomorrow for something she didn't do."
"I know this Rose," said Raymond, lowering her voice.
"You know?" asked Rose in surprise.
"Yes Rose: I see it happen: I hear her shout Kumali to stop."
"Then why didn't you tell Hardiman and Dawes?" Rose almost shouted.
"Sshhh Rose, not so loud. I try to say this: but Officers Hardiman and Dawes do not listen: they have made up their minds."
"But Raymond, this can't happen: if you know Chloe didn't do it surely the other Officers know as well?"
"I cannot say what they know for sure Rose. Officer Clark sees what Officer Dawes sees. Officer Bradley likewise. Officer Causer..." Raymond shrugged.