It was the mid 1980s. I was a young student at university, majoring in chemistry. My family was of somewhat limited means but I was very smart, at least academically. I had almost a full scholarship, which enabled me to live in campus and take classes full time without any cost to me or my family, something I took great pride in.
When I was at university, I had a job at the Department of Mathematics, grading papers. Every two weeks or so, I went to an office at the Department and turned in a timesheet to a secretary. Her name was Angie; she was much older than I was, probably about 60, and I liked her. She was kind of maternal. There was another secretary there who I saw occasionally. She was the secretary for the department head, and Angie's boss. She was probably in her late 50s, and I was a little bit afraid of her. I had to speak to her once or twice; she was rather overweight but had very large breasts, and also a deep, smoky voice. She wasn't particularly friendly, very no-nonsense, but she was efficient at her job. After I finished school and no longer worked there, I began to have this fantasy about her:
It is a Friday in April, late morning. I have just finished my Sociology class, and now is a good time to go up to the Math Department and turn in my time sheet. There is a warm breeze blowing, which brings the feeling that Spring is fully arrived. More people than usual are ditching class and hanging out in the Quad, throwing frisbees or sitting on blankets in small groups talking. Some are feeling "spring fever," that strange rush of endorphins that hits some in early spring and makes you want to do nothing, except maybe drink or have sex.
I take the elevator to the third floor and go to Angie's office, but she isn't there. I don't want to just leave the time sheet on her desk, as she might be on vacation or something, and in that case I might not get paid for a while. So I go to another office just down the hall, where Kate, another secretary, works. I like Kate also, although I rarely interact with her. Kate's door is open, so I walk in, and am quite surprised when instead of Kate, I see the head secretary, Phyllis. My heart sinks into my stomach; I hate to admit this to myself, but I am rather afraid of her, and I don't really want to deal with her. But I have no choice, unless I want to waste time with another trip. So I awkwardly introduce myself and start to explain that I need my timesheet authorized and given to my professor to sign. She gives me a strange look as she accepts the paper from me. I say thanks and turn to leave.
"Hold on a second, Gilbert," she says in her husky Baltimore accent.
I freeze in place. Oh no, what is she going to say?
"I need you to close the door and ask you something." My heart starts racing and I feel afraid again. What is she up to? But I comply.
"Let me take another look at you," says Phyllis. I stand there, not knowing how she wants me to stand. I'm afraid she is going to tell me someone has complained about my work, that I might even lose my job.
"Stand in profile, please," Phyllis commands, and I reflexively obey even though I just want to get out of there and don't think she has the right to mess with me.
"That's what I thought. You're that pervert kid who has been staring at us when we are in the courtyard smoking." My cheeks instantly flush with embarrassment. It was true, I had made a habit of watching Phyllis and a secretary from the Economics department (fourth floor) have cigarettes in the courtyard after they had lunch. I always made sure to hide behind a tree and keep a distance and thought they would never notice. And now here I stand, squirming with fear, my arms fidgeting with attempted movement while my legs stay rooted to the floor. And I know my body language is giving me away. She knows it's true now for sure. I don't know where to aim my eyes, so I try to stare at the shelf behind Phyllis and hope I can think of something to say in my defense.
"Hello?" Phyllis asks sharply. I realize that in my fear, my gaze has shifted and I am staring straight at her very ample breasts, which are straining against her white blouse. If possible, I become even redder.
"So you like these, do you?" She glances down at her chest. Again I don't know whether it is better to deny it, or just remain silent. I can't believe this is happening.
"I don't know what you're talking about," I finally manage to say, not very convincingly even to my own ears.
"Then what's that about?" she asks, with an amused, slightly twisted smile on her face, pointing to my groin. I realize I have a big hard on and the bulge is visible. All I can do now is throw my arms out as if to say, "What do you expect? I'm a 20 year-old guy."
"You think you can just mentally undress me and Marlene and then go back to your room and whack off or whatever you call it now," Phyllis declares, her voice starting to rise. "Well, today that is going to change."