Chapter 1
When I take the time to look at my life, at where I find myself today, I can't help but wonder how I got here. Like anything else, nothing happens overnight. One step at a time, one foot in front of the other, is how most things change. Still, when I look in a mirror I can't see that silly naΓ―ve girl/woman I used to be.
I used to be a young married woman, totally in love with my husband, and mother to a sweat little boy. I was happy. Life was simple. I had a nice job, family, and lots of friends surrounding me. We had a good sex life. And I had day dreams, fantasies. I guess those fantasies is how this all got started.
Exploring fantasies can help keep a marriage fresh. What about fantasies that a husband can't help a wife to investigate? What about a little "woman on woman" action, for example? Some husband might like to watch something like that, but not my husband. What happens when a wife wants to be more adventurous than her husband? Swinging, 3-somes, orgies, or open marriage are some examples. And what about those secret desires that a wife might have that a husband would never agree too?
I guess it was one of those fantasies that got me into trouble, and continues to plague me even today. My husband was a good man but he didn't want to do some of the things that fascinated me. Had he been a little more adventurous I might not have ever explored some of my private fantasies. Fantasies usually remain fantasies until opportunity presents itself. That how I found myself sucking on my first black cock. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't help myself. He was a friend from work. He was easy to talk with. We flirted a little and shared some of our fantasies with each. A little show and tell and I soon found my lips wrapped around his cock. His cock was twice as big as my husbands. When he would cum I would have a hard time swallowing it all. How could one man shot so much. With what little my husband could produce I'm surprised I ever got pregnant.
I love how silky it felt, yet hard as black steel. Just like doing drugs, sucking cock soon led to being fucked by a huge black cock. What my husband and I did could not be compared. I tried to define it as my husband made love to me. My black lover FUCKED me. But I soon found that there was nothing in the name. My lover did things to me that my husband would never be about to do. My lover would make me cum so hard that my toes would curl up. Every inch of my body would tingle.
Then my lover turned into more than one black man. I don't mean I was doing more than one at a time, but more than one lover. I couldn't say no. I couldn't stay away. I loved having my pussy stretched out. I loved being pounded. I love how strong they were and that they could fuck forever. But I got careless. I got caught. And I kissed a good marriage down the drain. You'd think that would have taught me a lesson. But it didn't. I just didn't have to hide what I was doing as much. So whenever I could I had a black cock in my mouth or up my pussy. I hated thinking of myself as a black cock whore, but that is what I was turning into.
I found that black cock might as well be an illegal drug. I was hooked on it and couldn't get enough. But I found that taking chances, getting caught, could be almost as powerful of a drug. I didn't seem to have any self control. I was lost and didn't care.
A year after my divorce my son walked in on me. I was giving my current lover a blow job right in our living room. Anyone could have walked in on us, and as luck would have it, my son was the one to see me on my knees. Our eyes made contact. My mouth was as full of my lovers 12" cock as I could get. My son's eyes were as big as saucers. He hesitated, then he ran away, but he hesitated. It was his hesitation that turned me on so much more. Guessing what he was thinking and feeling made me so hot. I continued to suck that steel rod but my mind was working overtime. I almost had an orgasm when loverboy shoot off into my mouth.
I kept wondering. Was my son turned on? Would he jerk off over it later tonight? Would he try and caught us again? Would he spy on me at other times? I almost had another orgasm just thinking about it.