Cassie was dreading her birthday next month. Where had the years gone? Half a bloody century she thought, that's not young it's only just still middle aged. She reflected how lucky she was; a decent job, enough money, a stable if unexciting marriage to a good man and excellent health. She had taken to the gym at 40 and was really reaping the benefit now. She smiled to herself remembering the looks she got from two of the young men at the gym. She had enjoyed them blatantly undressing her with their eyes. She had even fantasized about them actually undressing her and doing a lot more.
She realized that she probably fantasized more now than ever before. She did have sex with her husband. It wasn't bad sex, not often enough and certainly lacking any passion most of the time. Most of the time these fantasies were just thoughts as she drifted off to sleep. That was all except one recurring one. It was partly fantasy and partly remembering something that ended over twenty years ago. Her relationship with Jamie had been almost all about sex. The thing she really remembered though was the spankings and the sex that followed.
Was her memory playing tricks with her or had it really been as good as she now dreamed about? Had the orgasms really been that amazing? She suspected that they could not have been but was happy to use her memories to fuel the only fantasies that she used when masturbating. The fantasies got more lurid and her masturbation more regular. She was desperate to fantasize that it was her husband spanking and caning her bottom but try as she did it was always Jamie's face who she saw particularly as she gave in to her climax. She didn't think the masturbation was cheating on her husband but she did feel very guilty about needing the vision of Jamie before she could orgasm.
The other thing she was beginning to feel guilty about was that she was masturbating at least once a week and last week three times in eight days. The more she fantasized the more she seemed to need to. When laying in the hot bath the fantasy flooded her mind again and she tried to think of other things. The fantasy wouldn't go away but she was determined not to masturbate only two days after the last time. She managed to keep her hands away from her pussy until the water began to cool and she had to wash it. The wetness she found was not the water but her sexual excitement. Even with a soapy hand she was soon rubbing herself to a quick and very nice orgasm.
Often she made love to her husband after taking a bath and he was clearly interested when she got into bed. She felt guilty enough to not refuse his attentions. She was sensitive as always after having an orgasm but managed to accept the stimulation he offered. As always the lovemaking was gentle and considerate. Cassie nearly always had an orgasm when they made love but she never had two orgasms in a short time. Feeling guilty about masturbating she decided to fake a good orgasm as her husband indicated that he was close. She was a little worried that she had overdone it but was amused when her husband said how wonderful it was to see her cum like she used to.
The next day Cassie was reflecting on what had happened the night before. She felt bad that she had needed to fake her orgasm but more that her masturbation was now affecting the sex with her husband. The issue of her fantasies was clearly at the heart of everything. Could she try again to interest her husband in spanking her? If she could how satisfying would it actually be? She didn't have to spend much energy to reach the conclusion that her husband spanking her was not the answer to anything. She either had to cure herself of the fantasies or arrive at the conclusion that had been staring her in the face for months.
Even just reflecting as she was she could not shift the vision of being helpless as a smiling Jamie spanked her harder and harder. She was disgusted with herself that this was getting her as aroused as it was. She promised herself that she would not masturbate until after making love to her husband again.
She kept to the promise she had made herself. Her husband was amazed at how enthusiastic she was to make love when she asked him. What he was most surprised at was that it was only five days after their last time. His surprise turned to delight when she had a very strong orgasm. This one was not faked but Cassie was disturbed as for the first time ever the trigger for the orgasm with her husband was the image of Jamie spanking her bottom and teasing her about the fact that it was going to cause her to lose all control.
She was very lucky to have one friend who shared both of their inner secrets with, well most of them anyway. At lunch her friend asked why Cassie was looking so worried. They had discussed many things about their sex lives but never spanking or her history with Jamie. Cassie was so upset that she told Sara everything. All about her love of being spanked, her masturbation and the effects they were having on her marriage. Sara listened intently sympathizing where she felt it was needed. When Cassie stopped to draw breath Sara said if I thought it would help I would put you over my knee and spank you until you never wanted to be spanked again.
Cassie said she knew she was joking but said the sad truth was it more likely to excite her than to cure her of the fantasy. They both laughed at this. Sara then said that the options seemed limited. Medical help was a possible option. Maybe something like hypnosis. It was agreed that Cassie could not stop the fantasies without help. The only other option was therefore to fulfill the fantasies.
Cassie said that was easier said than done. She didn't want to be unfaithful to her husband but also there was the problem of finding someone safe and able to give her what she needed. Sara's response was no less shocking to Cassie for the fact that it was obvious. Cassie would need to find Jamie and ask him to resume the control he used to have over her bottom. They talked around the subject over the rest of lunch but Cassie knew she would be tracking Jamie down very soon.
Within the week Cassie was meeting a very confident Jamie in a quiet pub far enough away from where they both lived. She quickly understood why she had found him so compelling in the past. After a quick update about their lives and in particular their marriages Jamie asked why Cassie had asked for the meeting. Cassie had rehearsed this speech many times but now was worried that she would not be able to say anything. She looked at Jamie and said.
"This is more difficult than anything I have ever asked before. Would you please just listen and not say anything until I have finished. As I have just told you I am happily married to a good man but I cannot stop thinking about some of the times we had together. I am so ashamed to admit that more and more I fantasize about how you used to spank my bottom. Worse I fantasize about how I want you to spank my bottom now. I loved those times we had and the orgasms that I enjoyed during the sex afterwards. I know you are happily married but I must at least ask you whether you would consider spanking me again?"
When she finished talking she dropped her head completely unable to look him in the eyes. If she had been able to she would have seen a surprisingly fond look in his eyes and a kind smile on his face.
"I have never forgotten those times together. The last time I spanked a bottom it was yours. I cannot think of anything I would enjoy more than taking you over my knee and spanking you very thoroughly. I am not sure either of us should even think about it let alone do it. I cannot give you an answer now but I can say that I will consider it over the next few days. Let's meet here in a weeks time."
He knew he could not turn down the opportunity and was aware that as in the past a spanking would be most exciting for both of them if he was in complete control. The week gave him time to consider the best way to take things forward. Cassie found a very confident Jamie waiting for her in the pub.
She was taken aback by the terms he insisted she needed to agree to. Over the previous week she knew the need to be spanked had become an obsession. She agreed, as she would have agreed to almost anything. She was crestfallen when they agreed that their first spanking would have to wait until her husband was away for a week on business. It was however an excited Cassie who left the pub. She was so excited that she found herself making love to her husband with an enthusiasm he was not used to. She could not even admit to herself why the orgasm that she had was as good as it was.
It seemed like a lifetime until her husband said he was flying out on a work trip the next Monday and would be back on the Friday. Cassie knew that her bottom would show the results of a heavy spanking for at least two or three days. She also knew that if she was very careful she could keep him from seeing her naked bottom for a day or two if necessary. It was an excited Cassie who rang Jamie and almost pleaded with him to come to her house on the Monday after work. Jamie reminded her that the terms were that they would meet at his house. This reminded the excited Cassie of the other terms that he had insisted on and she had only reluctantly agreed to.