The day that I became a pet felt like a sudden transformation, but it wasn't. When Dave began removing my clothes, I felt as if I was changing emotionally and even my personality began to shift in a way that I didn't immediately perceive. The moment that Dave attached the leash to my collar and gently tugged downward until I was on my hands and knees in front of him wasn't the moment that I started to become his pet. It was only the moment that felt like I was.
The reality is, it was the moment that Dave started to show a kind of paternal interest in me, an interest that on a subconscious level that I was desperately in need of, that my mind began to shift. When he provided me with water when I was on my runs, he wasn't just filling a physical need. He filled an emotional one as well. It was in these weeks leading up to the moment that I found myself naked looking up at Dave while he told me I was a good girl and patted my head, that I truly started on the path to becoming Dave's pet.
While this path may have started weeks before, the actual moment that it happened had a powerful impact on my mind. I was nervous but I wasn't scared. I was excited. I knew the reason I was excited was because this was something the world would condemn both of us for. I was embarrassed initially and perhaps that heightened the excitement for me, but it was the forbidden nature of what we were doing that sent a kind of shock wave through my brain.
For Dave I think there was a lot of conflicted thoughts going through is mind. We discussed a lot of it later, but I sensed that there was some hesitation on his part. I think he feared much more than social condemnation. I think he feared how my family, probably more specifically my dad would react to what we were doing. Fear of some how harming me was also on his mind. Dave's paternal interest in me wasn't an act. It wasn't something that I felt he did just to get my attention. It was something that I felt was genuine and without it I don't think it would have ever occurred to either one of us to do anything like what we were doing.
It wasn't long after I found myself on my hands and knees in front of Dave that I found myself drawn deeper into my role as his pet. When Dave drew the ball that we had purchased at the pet store from the shopping bag, my heart skipped a beat. I was excited. It was crazy but I was actually excited by what I knew was going to happen. As Dave bounced the ball against the ground I experienced this inexplicable sense of joy as I chased it on all fours. I retrieved the ball in my mouth and brought it back to Dave and deposited it into his hand. He praised me for being such a good girl. The amazing thing about that was that I was actually feeling this overwhelming sense of satisfaction knowing that I was his good girl.
While this feeling may have been brewing inside my brain for weeks, the feeling completely emerged from my subconscious as I chased the ball as Dave threw it for me to fetch. He had an enormous smile on his face as he watched me crawl after the ball on my hands and knees, and all I could feel was this overwhelming though inexplicable feeling of pride at making him happy. I wanted more than anything in that moment to please him and from the smile on his face I know that I did.
It wasn't long before Dave became aware that I was developing carpet burn on my knees from fetching the ball with no clothes on. I was more conscious of my body conspicuously jiggling as I crawled than I was of my knees. As Dave became aware of my knees needing to be protected, rather than taking the ball from my mouth, he simply drew me forward into an embrace. He held me for a moment and asked me how this was for me. I told him it was amazing. And he just kept holding me like that and instructed me to tell him if that changed. If this was ever not alright with me.