"Please baby, please." He pleaded with his big brown eyes gazing up at me, glassy with desire.
"I want to be locked up, I mean it."
We had been talking for weeks about male chastity.
Male chastity? WTF.
When he first brought it up to me, I thought for sure it was a joke. I never heard of such a thing, and my husband, a pastor! Thank God for the internet. Google and YouTube can teach you anything.
That's where it all started Literotica.com. I walked into the den that night and there it was, right in front of me. He was sleeping, his head slumped to his shoulder.
He never rested and my heart always melted to see him peaceful like that. His chair was across the room and the cat was sound asleep on his lap, semi covering the keypad of his laptop.
He had a real nice smile on his face, just laying there like that, under the worn blanket his great grandmother had crocheted for him.
I tiptoed across the room so I would not wake him. I figured I would just slip the laptop out of his lap and leave him and the pussy cat to sleep on the chair.
I'm not sure exactly what happened next. I caught sight of a naked lady with sign that said, "she likes anal" and a scream came out of me.
The cat jumped sky high with a screech and my pastor husband, legs now bleeding from the panicked cat howling louder than any of us.
He snatched the computer out of my hands and snapped it shut. My chest felt like I got hit by a truck. I couldn't say a word.
He put the computer down and tried to hug me. Fumbling for words, his eyes were filled with fear.
"Don't freak out." He demanded. "Please don't freak out."
He walked to the door calmly, which was weird, and let the cat out.
My heart pounded and my mind ran in a loop. What the hell was going on. We had a normal sex life. Twice a week, right on schedule, Tuesday night and Sunday afternoon after church. "Gotta earn it!" He would laugh as he prepared his sermon.
I always wondered about that, a little bit of naughty mixed in with the Lord's work. He was a great pastor and the people loved him. Who was I to question the scheduling quirk? Besides, he was a thoughtful lover and always tender with me.
"Erm," I heard behind me, "How do I begin?"
Taking a deep breath and willing myself into a calm state of mind, I turned to face him. My heart rate went up but I steadied myself. I loved this man, god damn it. Everything in me was swirling.
Remembering what he talked about just last Sunday and instantly relieved, I blurted out, "Let's start with what we can agree on." He burst out laughing and we just hugged. "I love you so much." He said while he was squeezing me tight. I felt him start to sob.
After an hour of mutual crying and comfort sex, he finally began to tell the story. Time flew as I tried to take in all he was saying.
I didn't even know half the words he was using. The only bottoms and tops I knew about were jeans and tee shirts. The more he went on, the more excited he got.
I barely recognized him. My quiet, professor like introverted church guy was actually bubbling over with excitement. I gulped.
"Hang on a second, hang on." Let me grab a smoke. Hell, if he is going to come out, so am I. He didn't blink as I reached into my purse and took out a joint. "I think I am going to need this."
"So let me get this straight." Taking a deep drag on the sweet smoke, I exhaled.
"You want to have sex more than twice a week on schedule?" Humor has always saved my ass and I hoped it would work now.
He was nervous but he did laugh. Now flushing bright red, his energy dropped a bit. "Thanks for not freaking out. Can I have a hit of that thing?"
We spent the better part of the night talking about all things kinky. Well, all things kinky for a pastor and his wife. Like I said, I love this man. I truly didn't know what to do but my momma always told me, "everything works out the way it's supposed to." I hoped she was right.
Once he explained how he was using the internet for sex, at first I was not happy. I felt anger crawl up the back of my neck. You hypocrite, I wanted to scream. Somehow I was able to contain myself. God knows where I got the control.
"But baby, I could never cheat, never. I have been miserable every time I chat online, afraid you would walk in. And now you know." Chin falling to his chest, he paused.
"Go on."
"The worst part of it was that I started to miss having you in on it with me. Every time I was chatting, I was secretly wishing it was you. I don't want another woman. I want you to do some things with you."