It was lust for Annie at first sight. The new secretary at work knew she was hot and wasn't afraid to flaunt it. Her young twenties' zest for life had my thirty-mumble years making me feel like a dinosaur. I wanted her. I had to have her.
I couldn't have her.
Since she worked mostly away from clients, she wore tight t-shirts which showed off her perky, small b-cups. She usually had a skirt draped off her narrow hips down to her ankles, but occasionally tight jeans removed room for imagination.
Annie had the most amazing blue eyes, pale, the color of the cold, winter sky; they went nicely with her butter blonde—almost white—hair.
Annie liked to flirt, and she was a kleptomaniac where pens were concerned. If you left one lying on your desk, and Annie was in the vicinity, you could bet it'd be gone by the time she was on her way back to her cube. I lost count of the times I went to retrieve my Parker 51 from her. We had the script down by the end of her first week at the office:
"Gimme back my pen," I'd say.
"What makes you think I got it?" she'd ask.
"I saw you walk off with it."
She'd take the pen out of her desk drawer and hold it up for me, just out of reach.
"This pen?"
I'd make a grab for it, and she'd move it away, again, just out of reach.
"Gimme." My voice raised a little bit. It was my pen, damn it. A gift.
Then she'd hand it back, with a smile on her thin, dark red, lipsticked lips which said, 'I won.'
"Next time you have to earn it," she'd say with a tone of promise, which would, invariably, fluster me.
Sometimes I'd sputter, "I—I—I—"
I had a wife, and I couldn't have Annie. I wanted her.
I just couldn't have her.
Annie knew about my wife. Betty's picture is on my desk, and I talked about her all the time—she's my wife, the other half of me.
I should have known better; I was playing with fire with our pen game.
Our flirt game.
I'd say to myself, "I love my wife …" … 'but I'd love to fuck Annie.' "I can't do anything to screw up my marriage …" '… but I'd sure love to fuck Annie.'
My sex life at the time had dwindled to the point of my occasionally seducing Betty, and sticking it in until I came. I wanted more. I needed more. I tried to rationalize it by telling myself that Betty had a lower sex drive, but that was a lie; she could get just as horny as me. Hell, I could turn her into a little animal.
No, it was something different. I loved Betty—I found Betty sexy, gorgeous, loving … but I needed someone to stoke my fires. I needed Annie.
I wanted Annie.
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Every now and then I have to work late to catch up on paperwork. Not "work late," but … work late.
Usually, when 5:30 comes along, I'm the first doing the sprint for the door, but Thursdays are Betty's late days at her job, and we don't usually see each other again until Friday night.
I worked until six-thirty, I'd finished way early the projections for the project I was working on, and I was ready for an hour or two of peace and quiet before Betty got home. Finally, I could watch something on TV that I wanted to. Sometimes consensus sucks.
The parking lot was dark, and at first I didn't notice her, because she was parked directly behind my car.
Annie.
She sat on the hood of her car, swinging her legs, watching me approach. I was glad I couldn't see her eyes in the dark, because I had a feeling that they had the sparkling look of a predator.
She made me nervous, so I broke the silence first.
"What's up?" Smooth. Real smooth.
Annie shrugged, her little titties jiggled a little beneath her t-shirt.