This is a story about a sperm fetish. If the thought of that is distasteful or repugnant to you, you really should avoid this story. It was inspired by a suggestion of a Literotica reader, who wishes to remain anonymous. I should also note that there is also a bit of a first time theme to this story, at least in the first half. All of the characters are at least eighteen years old.
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"I love a man's sperm. What's not to love? It's clearly the most important and wonderful gift a man can provide a woman. It's so clearly much better than flowers, lingerie, or even jewelry. Those are just material things. The stuff of a man's balls are the seeds of life: my future baby, our future child. What could be more wonderful than that?"
These were all good arguments. Dr. Lowenstein would have to agree with that.
Marilyn was one of Dr. Lowenstein's newest patients. She wasn't actually a patient though. She was here just for a diagnostic evaluation, requested on behalf of the chess coach.
Marilyn was lying on Dr. Lowenstein's analyst's couch, looking up at the ceiling as she discussed her interest, her passion, her love; for male seed. She wasn't too sure that it was in fact a problem. Could it really be? But, after the chess incident, she was informed by the coach in no uncertain terms that she needed to seek a professional evaluation. But, that comes later in the story. It's probably best to begin at the beginning.
Well, the very beginning did probably date back to childhood, embedded within the parent-child relationship. Most forms of psychopathology trace their roots to early "object relationships," as Dr. Lowenstein's mentor liked to say. But that form of deep analysis would only come late in treatment. Dr. Lowenstein didn't figure to need more than one session to reach a diagnosis.
"When did you first notice your, um, interest?" Dr. Lowenstein inquired. She cursed herself though for hesitating in her wording for the patient's paraphilic obsession, if not preoccupation, with male sperm. As an analyst she strived to be non-judgmental, and certainly worked hard at not revealing any potential bias in the content or even tone of voice or manner of speech. It was precisely for this reason that she sat behind Marilyn, out of her line of vision, so that the patient could not read into her expression, or any subtle body movement, a sign of disapproval (or just as bad, personal pleasure). But, she had momentarily tipped her hand when she hesitated in how she described Marilyn's "interest" in male sperm.
Marilyn though did not appear to notice, at least not consciously. And, if she had she probably would not have minded. Dr. Lowenstein was, after all, a well regarded sex therapist (e.g., "Teddy visits a therapist," and "Dr. Lowenstein's group therapy"), and it should not be surprising if she did in fact consider Marilyn's passionate interest to be a perversion. Clearly the chess coach, Mr. Fischer, was so inclined. Still, Marilyn was hoping that Dr. Lowenstein would cum, or come, to appreciate that it was a reasonably normal predilection, a harmless fondness, an innocent proclivity.
"Goodness, let me think, let me think," Marilyn pondered.
Dr. Lowenstein was tempted to remind the patient that she should just say the first thing that came to mind, letting her thoughts gush forth without censorship or restraint. But, it was also wise to let the patient take her own path. As long as she was making progress, the rate of travel would be her own.
"Well, I don't think it was until I was eighteen years old. I really hadn't had that much experience before then."
Dr. Lowenstein nodded. Dr. Lowenstein worked through the Templeton College psychological clinic. She had now seen quite a few Templeton students in therapy for sexual dysfunction, and it was striking how so many of them were quite inexperienced prior to college. It all changed once they entered college, clearly an effect of leaving the tight apron strings of their family home. Templeton students typically came from very conservative families, with parents who hoped that the administration of Templeton would watch their children as closely as they had been watched at home. Dr. Lowenstein felt that this degree of parental control was more problematic than helpful, contributing to a dysfunctional and at times even a dyscontrolled sexual adjustment as they wrestled with the freedom and stimulation they experienced at college.
Marilyn continued her story. "I guess it was awhile ago. I was on a date, with Mike. He's my boyfriend. We hadn't really done anything up until that point, other than kissing and necking, you know, and, well..." She hesitated to add this point. "Some fondling." Once she said it though she found that she was comfortable talking about it. "I really like it when Mikey fondles my..."
"Your breasts?" The doctor finished the sentence for her.
"Yes," Marilyn acknowledged, her face reddening but she did absentmindedly reach up and lightly place a hand on her breast.
Dr. Lowenstein observed the young woman's hand touching her bosom. It was striking how patients will seem to forget that the therapist is there, but that was, of course, the full intention of sitting out of the patient's line of vision. You wanted the patients to feel comfortable saying virtually anything, although perhaps not doing virtually anything, at least something not under the doctor's direct personal control and guidance. But, Dr. Lowenstein wasn't about to alert the patient to the fact that she seemed to be fondling her breast. That would only make Marilyn feel self-conscious and likely inhibit her free speech, her free associations. "He has such gentle hands, and he will so nicely squeeze...them." Marilyn released a deep sigh as she fondly recalled his fondling, while softly squeezing her own boob. She even lightly pinched her nipple. A warmth was developing within her thighs.
"We would really go at it sometimes, I must admit." Marilyn giggled at the memory. "Well, we certainly did that one night. We were lying down on my parents' couch. Mike has a room at the dorm but I still live at home, which is fine 'cause when my parents go out we have a whole house to ourselves. In any case, we really were going at it pretty hot and heavy. Frankly, at the time it was really too much too quick for me. I felt I really wasn't ready for that, and for what happened." Marilyn recounted the story for the doctor.
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It had started off with just kissing, long and sustained kissing, eventually leading to some tongue action, which itself became rather intense.