With a sigh, I sank down into my couch and cracked open a beer. I closed my eyes and listened, silence and the distance hum of a highway was the only thing I heard. I opened my eyes and looked around and saw no one. It began to sink in, I was finally on my own.
I recently got a divorce and just moved into my 'new' apartment, honesty it was anything but new. It was nothing compared to the beautiful house my now ex-wife and I used to share. But, it was mine, and a wave of possibility and excitement flooded over me.
I had pushed back my sexuality for 10 years, getting by on the horribly unsatisfying sex my ex and I had throughout our marriage. I couldn't please her, and she didn't want to be pleased. She couldn't please me, and didn't want to either.
Now, here on my own, possibility beckoned, my submissive desires began to fill my mind and body. My bisexual desires that I have denied myself for a decade were now possible.
I got up and closed all the blinds in my small apartment. I went into my bathroom and took off all my clothes. Looking in the mirror at my naturally feminine, skinny, hairless, shaved body and tiny cock. I smiled and whispered, 'you were made for this.' I dug through an unpacked box and found my favorite panties, a lacy black thong with "Victoria's Secret" written in bedazzled jewels on the waistband.
Striding back to my living room I laid down on the couch and took a long drink of my beer. I grabbed my phone and went to work.
Opening various apps and websites I began to put myself out there. I spent the most time on Reddit, uploading faceless pics of myself in my panties to various sissy, femboy, gay, and faggot pages. All with the same message...
"Recently divorced slave looking for someone to serve in real life."
I posted and posted and posted, then I waited....
Before long, I was met with various "hey sissy," "hey boy," and simply "hey," messages.
All the conversations were dead ends, not producing the real deep conversation I was looking for.
All night I texted potential masters without any luck, I video chatted some, send out what felt like hundreds of photos and videos of my smooth hairless body, endured quite a bit of humiliation and degradation (which I loved,) but didn't find the fit I was looking for.
After awhile I fell asleep, on my couch wearing nothing but my adorable black panties.
The next morning was Saturday, and I woke up to a message that would be the beginning of discovering my true self, looking back, it was the first day of my new life.
Here's what it said....
"Hi Adam, I saw your post and photos looking to be a slave for a real master or mistress. I think you have great potential, please respond with your details, are you available for a video chat interview today?"
This message was obviously entirely different, it was so formal, so 'nonsexy' it was like I was applying for a job at target and got an interview with the store manager. Something about this was... incredibly hot and intriguing, I quickly responded...