A Roommate Unlike Any Other
Chapter 9 My New Normal
Thirty days after our first time together, I was presented with a gift from Hannah. Despite all that had been exposed between us, I still reacted like an embarrassed school girl when I unwrapped the package to discover a small purple vibrator. This was to be the first of many from Hannah who insisted that I have my own collection that should never stop growing. As she would often say, 'a girl can't know what she is missing until she tries as much variety as possible!' I always assumed that her credo applied to living partners as much as to inanimate objects.
As time passed, our routine became more natural and the lines between roommate and subservient lesbian, had blurred considerably. Perhaps it was because there was such a strong friendship between us. When sex wasn't involved, Hannah felt like the closest friend I'd ever had. I was never made to feel lesser in any way. What I had envisioned as power and dominance had really evolved into a relationship between mentor and student.
When sex was on the menu, my relationship with Hannah did not feel any less solid. And though I now saw myself as her willing pupil, Hannah's domination of my mind and my body always created thrills on a level I had not previously thought possible. My initial hesitation had given way to an insatiable appetite to please. With every experience, Hannah taught me that the mental element was every bit as important as the physical pleasures of sex.
We had become quite flirty with one another around the apartment. It had become so natural that I had to be careful out in public or when Jake was around. It was very important to me that the true nature of our friendship did not become obvious to others. The worst time was always when we were out at a pub drinking. Hannah would push the boundaries just to see if I would freak out. Maybe just handsy under the table or a caress when she thought no one was looking.
Hannah's video collection had continued to grow but at a somewhat slower pace. I assumed that she had an open relationship with Jake because if she didn't, there was a great deal about her life that he did not know about. This however, was not my worry and not something I ever felt the need to discuss with Hannah. For my part, I was pleased that she now shared the videos with me each time she made a new one. I felt as though I had been let into her inner circle.
Sometimes we would watch the videos together and Hannah would share some background about how she had hooked up with one of her many sexual 'pets'. Essentially, Hannah had curated a rather large group of males and females that seemed to be no more than 'friends with benefits'. It never ceased to amaze me that she could assert so much control over so many others and that they seemed more than happy to do whatever she asked.
Hannah explained that honesty and pleasure were the keys to her dominance. She never lied about what she wanted and what she was willing to give. She was upfront about her needs and expectations and vetted her partners on that basis. She viewed sex as a means of fulfillment and took great joy in being so effective in delivering pleasure to others. Hannah explained, 'if you can stimulate the mind, you can have as much of the body as you wish!'
My evolving experience as a newly proud, bisexual woman was completely due to Hannah's mentorship. As time passed and I became ever more proficient at pleasuring Hannah, I began to see myself -- in theory, as both dominant and submissive. I'd yet to have the opportunity for dominance but now had the courage and confidence to imagine it. I could now see it as a definite future possibility with the right guy -- or girl.
For the most part, I'd lost all inhibition about having sex with Hannah. I'd touched, caressed, licked and explored every inch of her body countless times. I'd pleasured her with toys and with my body in whatever manner she demanded. It had become common place for us to masturbate together, shower together, sleep together. Even Jake's presence did little to distract from our fun.
A small but not insignificant chapter of my education involved learning about bondage. Though intimidating at first, I soon came to appreciate that leaving oneself completely vulnerable to another could greatly heighten the eroticism. I trusted Hannah to tie me up, to immobilize me. We didn't need a safe word. I knew that she would not cause me pain or discomfort or lead me anywhere beyond my limits of comfort.
