This economy is killing me. Or as the general parlance goes, "it fucking sucks."
"I'm sorry, Kay, but we really just cannot afford to continue your contract." He looks genuinely pained, but I am looking for any falsity, pretense.
"I'd be willing to cut my rates, as I have the last three years, but the margin is getting smaller," I offer.
He smiles. "I appreciate that, really, more than I can say, but seriously, I think we're looking at bankruptcy here. I have nothing to barter. There's nothing left."
Well, damn. This is one of my last few consulting contracts, and I really need it. This is going to hurt.
A little background: I'm a former military and law enforcement trainer. I still do a lot of consulting for those agencies, but retired a few years ago. One of my specialties was the use of animals in force use, whether tracking a subject, transporting gear, finding evidence. As government contracts have tightened, I have expanded into service dog work, search and rescue, horse training for law enforcement and more.
Unfortunately, even those contracts and consulting gigs got tighter still, so I eventually went into training in the civilian sector.
And now I'm watching my last, and most lucrative, contract dissolve before my eyes...
I stop at the local bar on the way home. There are a few friends in the crowd, and we quickly gather round. We talk shop, dogs, politics and more.
As I'm downing my second cocktail, savoring the celery salt, Marcus asks me about dog training. Slightly buzzed, and with the noise of the crowd, it's hard to make out what he's asking, but I smile politely, nod appropriately, then suggest he bring Taffy up next weekend, and we'll work on it. Given the smile on his face, I think it worked, and I order a third cocktail.
I am so fucked. I am a single mom, two kids, lots of working dogs, a large house with an equally large payment, and ordered child support that never comes, and I am so tired.
Heading home the backroads, so as not to be a menace to anyone, I am thinking. Well, I can sell the trailer. There's that. I don't own anything on contract, except the house - everything else, I'm studious about paying up front with cash. I could get rid of my horse, but I would rather sell a kidney first. I'd take up prostitution, but the hours and the pay suck - how do I go from $1,000.00 per 8 hours for standing in high heels and lecturing to $15.00 for a blowjob in an alley?
Yeah, the economy sucks and I'm fucked.
Pulling into the driveway, I punch the garage door opener. I can't park in the garage due to the amount of gear and dog kennels, but it is the easiest way to deal with a persnickety front door lock.
There are only a few boarders here anymore. The economy is hitting their owners hard, too, and instead of a full kennel, it's hit and miss.
I top off their water, refill the auto feeders for the morning, scrape a little poop, scritch an ear, croon a few soft words, and done. They are already bedded down for the night, and I don't want to work them up.