~Dedicated to my ~B with all my love. ~L
~My thanks to jimmyturtleman. After reading his thread, "Do you feel submissive when you suck a cock?," my imagination was ignited and I was inspired to write this story. A special thank you to my friend gb for editing this story and to Matt_Next_Door for his critique and feedback.
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"I'm not gay. I just like cock." I remember the first time I heard those words come out of my mouth. Even as I said them, I couldn't believe it. My first thought was, what the fuck did I just say? My second thought was, did I say that aloud?
My story isn't a long one, but it is a little convoluted. First of all, maybe it would help if I gave you a little background information. I'm a healthy and active 54 year old man. I've been happily married for over twenty years. I'd say, I had a good sex life with my wife. We were active and happy with it up til about two years ago. In fact, most couples our age would envy what we shared. It included us having intercourse at least twice a week. Most weeks, it also included oral play of some sort.
I was happy with everything about our intimate moments. Most of my friends were complaining that they barely had any form of relations and were lucky if they "got any" once a month. I considered myself lucky, blessed even.
However, two years ago, my wife had to have a partial hysterectomy for fibroids. That's when she became very disinterested in any form of sexual intimacy. No matter how I tried to get her interested in love making or to get her turned on, it never worked. She didn't even take interest in oral stimulation anymore. It was like someone switched off her sex drive. I didn't understand it. I also didn't know what to do to change things.
I tried to talk her into some alternative options from something simple like playing with toys, to the more drastic option of bringing in another partner to see if that would excite her. Nothing I offered seemed to increase her interest. She wouldn't have any of it. I was getting more desperate, so I suggested she might want to try a different partner. I asked if she thought she wanted to be with another man...or a woman. On previous occasions, she had talked about having sex dreams where she was with another woman.
Those suggestions didn't strike her interest at all and she looked at me like I was a crazy person for asking. She rejected all of my ideas. Then insisted that she had simply lost all interest in intimacy. She was kind and caring when she stated that she still loved me as a person and the man in her life.
She swore she still loved me, but that sex was no longer an option for her. There was no reason for me to think she was lying, so I had no choice but to accept her explanation. Selfishly, I realized that her answer wasn't going to help my frustration level or meet my needs.
Faced with the dilemma of no longer having my sex partner of twenty plus years, I found myself doing other things to alleviate my sexual needs and desires. First, I masturbated almost daily. My shower became fifteen to twenty minutes longer. Next, I realized I was surfing more porn sites than I ever did. I even found myself on a few chat sites. That's when I found myself becoming more interested in something I'd never thought about in all of my fifty-four years.
Initially, I was watching porn and picturing the woman in the porn as my wife. I would jerk off constantly, as I watched and remembered how it felt to have her naked body in my arms. I'd stroke myself and see her hand or her mouth on me. I could feel her breast in my hand or mouth while I brought myself to orgasm.
Then, the genre of porn changed. I started watching threesomes. Most of the threesomes, were MFM. My fascination of imagining my wife fucking other men did not end with the porn sites. It was fueled by reading dirty stories and having constant dreams about it. The dreams were always very vivid.
One recurring theme was meeting a stranger and bringing him to our hotel room or home with us. Then, he'd make me watch them. I'd watch as he stripped my wife naked. He'd force her to look at me as he bent her over the bed or a chair and slid his cock into her. All the while he'd be looking at me while fucking her. I didn't know what to make of it at the time. I did know that I'd wake up hard every time I had that dream and jack off to the pictures in my head. The thought of some guy bending my wife over and taking her but looking in my eyes was a fucking rush.
It was a slow transition, but soon I began imagining myself in the scene. Months later, the porn turned to cuckold stories. The threesomes were more MMF than MFM. I was now an active member in the scene.
One night, I was masturbating and realized, I was picturing myself interacting with a male partner. I found myself jerking off while thinking about touching another guy's cock. It was the first time I ever got off by thinking about a man. As I stroked myself, I pictured me stroking the porn star's big dick too. A dual masturbation. I came hard for the first time in months.
It wasn't too long before touching his dick became kissing it. I found that my fantasies moved to less play with the woman and more play with the man. Touching his cock, kissing his cock, playing with his cock. I was fascinated by cock. Every time I watched a scene, I saw myself pleasuring the man in it. Sometimes, I was jerking him off. Other times, I was sucking him off. Oddly, I felt no guilt.
When I started to specifically search for guys giving each other blow jobs, I kept telling myself, it's natural to be curious. It doesn't mean anything. One night, I dreamed of eating another man's cum from my wife's dripping wet, freshly fucked pussy. I woke up hard as a rock, thinking how kinky it was to be eating another man's cum.
I questioned myself at times. Why didn't I think more about eating her out? Why was I more turned on by the fact that I was eating another man's cum?
Shortly after that, I started fantasizing about taking another man directly in my mouth and sucking him until he came down my throat. One day, while I waited for my wife to finish shopping, I saw this man walking through the store behind her. I watched as he stayed a few steps behind her, but followed her up and down the isles. Every time she stopped, he would stop. A few times, he looked her up and down...checking her ass out when she bent over to grab something. I smiled at the idea of him with her, with me.
My imagination ran wild. I pretended he was a stranger I'd met earlier at a dirty book store and suggested we have a threesome together. I'd told him where to meet us. I gave him a picture of my wife and told him to follow her around. To scare her, excite her.
The next time she bent over to look at something, he moved behind her. He was close. I saw as he moved his body right behind her and rubbed up against her ass. She didn't pull away. She stood up and pushed herself back against him. I looked at them as she rubbed her ass against him. My cock started to get hard.
He took her hand and placed it over his erection. I continued to stare at the two of them as she brought him to a full hard-on and his big dick bulged in his pants. Then, they walked toward me. He stood in front of me. He stepped closer, until he was right in front of my face. You're going to suck my cock now, he told me. I licked my lips in anticipation, as I looked over at my wife standing next to him.
My wife nodded and said, You know you want to. It's something you've always wanted to experience.
